Chucky Charlie

Blackberry... The greatest phone without angry bird.

2012-01-31T22:44:00.001+08:00

This entry is not sponsored by Blackberry.

If you think about phone, what do you imagine? A device which can be used to communicate with voice or text. This could be what you were thinking years ago before the era of smartphone. After the era of smartphone, you would definitely think about angry bird.

Angry bird somehow make those phone such as iphone and samsung sell a million of their product in this world. Your definition of a good phone now would be a phone that can play angry bird smoothly. This is in fact the first app you would open if you test a smartphone. Another thing would be the camera.

A phone nowadays is much more a trend than a device of communication. A friend of mine with a new iphone would be difficult to reach unless you call him/her. She will not reply your email and he will only check his facebook message every 30 minutes (30 minutes is such a long time in this world of tech). Their iphone or samsung galaxy is much more like a device to play angry bird, slide-slide-with-no-reason or to talk to (Siri) rather than using it as a communication device.
This is where blackberry somehow could be the winner. Blackberry as you all realize is a powerful smartphone for communication and organizing your life. I used to own an ipod touch 4G in addition to my blackberry Bold but it does not really help me much.

The strength of blackberry is the power of communication that it provide. Tell me, how many time a person with blackberry check their email? why bother checking because the email sent directly to you like a text message. U did not even need to put on 3G mode to receive it. More battery life it is. With combination up to 10 emails in 1 device, you would not miss an email ever. I own 3 emails account and I never check my email anymore cause I always updated with the new mails. Want to save your money on text message, email me, it won't have any different and won't cost you any money.

Email is lame... Now people use facebook and twitter. Wait, facebook status update and twitter or any social network out there is also integrated in blackberry. Someone comment my status, it will automatically sent to me like a text message. You can even ask me to go lunch with facebook, no need to think whether I will check my facebook or not. Blackberry will always keep me updated.
No need to talk about BBM, lame, people use whatsapp. But how can u use a whatsapp if you can only received and sent message when you turn on your 3G data carrier. I hate whatsapping people with iphone cause I pretty sure they will reply it hours later when they ON THEiR 3G.

The keypad is the best thing about Blackberry. Do you think I'll manage to type this entry with a touch screen keyboard? No way. But with this brilliantly easy to type keyboard, I am still going on with this entry ( I am typing this entry using my blackberry).

The battery life is superb. Because we don't need to on 3G to get all the good stuff mention above. Just simply use 2G and the battery can last up to 3 days.

For people who really need communication power with a simple internet for information, a powerful calendar and organizer, blackberry is the best.

Before I forget, I used to use my ipod to listen to music, my perspective change because I thought ipod is design for that but to tell you the truth, my blackberry sound way better with a headset or not. The speaker in blackberry is much more clear compare to ipod. Same with the camera.

With new Blackberry bold 9900 with a touch screen, I definitely choose that before iphone and samsung.

But wait, am I living in the past? The definition of a good phone is not communication nowadays but angry bird. Blackberry don't have angry bird. And it is limited with all those app to do prank, app to waste time while waiting for something or just plain wasting time, blackberry lack of angry bird. So if you ask for a good phone in this new era, choose the one that can play angry bird over the one which has the most powerful communication and social networking ability ever.

Regards,
Email me at ascap23@gmail.com for opinion and suggestion. Don't worry, I won't miss an email.
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The Viral Factor crushing Malaysia

2012-01-31T22:12:00.001+08:00

I did not say this movie is a good one cause the plot was too draggy and too many repetition. I believe everyone in this movie have seven life like a cat except the authority. It is a weak story plot yet its enough for a whole story to flow until the end.

I love the fact that this movie was shot almost 90% in Malaysia. From this movie, you can see that Malaysia can have real shooting action compare to our own movie like KL gangster or whatever. After watching this movie, I found that KL gangster is too lame.

I am fascinated by the fact that they can make a crazy action stunt and shooting act in front of busy city of KL and without asking people to leave town before they shoot ( like all malaysian movie always do). They really potray the busy life of the city yet they can be explosion, car crashing, shooting and many more. It explored all the possibility of thing that can be done in Malaysia.

Respect to our authority even their part mostly only as a victim of shooting in this movie.

Anyway, it is a good action pack movie. The plot is just long with so many repetition, yet in the end it kind of summarize everything. Anyone who love action movie, or Jay Chow, should be able to enjoy this movie.

Regards,
Any opinion can email me at ascap23@gmail.com
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Pilar of Creation

2012-01-27T23:36:00.001+08:00

I have been reading on Eagle nebula and other galaxy for a while now. Not a serious reading, just a reading to fill up my curiosity regarding how our universe actually work. Sometime I realize that the Law of physics that we used to say correct and proven, does not really apply to other places in the universe. In a simple funny way to describe it, maybe if a human living in other planet in other galaxy, they could fly without a wing or an airplane. It is weird, interesting, and sometimes scary.

The pilar of creation is a famous picture of 21 century. It was captured by hubble telescope showing a pilar of cloud of gas which created by and extreme radiation at the centre. Just like when a bomb blew and all the clouds around it push to the side and some of the cloud happen to be shaped like a pillar or something like that. The most interesting part is when other than the cloud of gas, we also can see that inside thayt pillar of gas, some new forming star is being born. That is so amazing.

A galaxy in the making... interesting but also make me think, god isn't finish after all. Lot of us always think that this universe was created and we are put here in earth and that's it. Now we wait for doomsday. But wait, look at the pilar of creation or other nebula galaxy, there is a new sun that is being created. God did not stop just here in earth.

Anyway, what I want to talk here is not about that science stuff regarding the birth of new solar system but regarding something that always bother me. Religion and science battle.

As you can see, I am not an atheist. I believe in God. Does not matter which religion you are, religion plays important role in restricting our mind to go further. That is what most people think. That's why some people start to disbelieve god and become an atheist.

The problem lies when people start to connect science with religion. It does not go very well. Science is based on fact and religion based on faith and believe. Most religion teaching is vague in describing stuff but science always want precision and details. Science does not need intepretation as it evolve on direct observation and proof. Religion is all about prophecy and most of it is the thing that we could not see.

This two is always running in their own course and direction. However, something in religion teaching always make sense in the end after we understand stuff.

For me, I love science but I keep my religion. It keeps me thinking and thinking and did not stop thinking until I found I wanted to know.

Do you remember that our grandma or our parent always said - stop thinking too far, that is God stuff. You will become 'murtad' if you think too much. I found this restriction is nonsense. This make future generation a generation of follow whatever that has been told to you and that's it. I don't want to stop thinking. I love to think about anything. I still believe in God but I still think on how he trigger the big bang and create the whole world. There is no limit if thinking.

When this restriction implanted into our kids mind, they will eventually believe that science and religion will not match and they start to believe only one. Which make the gap bigger.

However there is another kind of people which believe in God and science yet always try to connect everything together. As I told earlier religion and science always running on different direction. These people try to reason all the science stuff to their religion. When big bang was discovered, they start to reason that every religous text is proven by this theory. Maybe it is, but there is always an open book which we can explore further rather than making it fixed. Maybe the big bang is not true after all and then how do you reverse your religious text?

What am I trying to say here is, there is no rush in jumping into a conclusion. For example, Eve was said to be created from Adam's rib and everyone start to believe it. But when science told that both women and men have equals number of rib, and human was created by conception, religious people start to reverse and later they found that Koran for example really told about human conception after all. But yet, previously they already conclude one thing now they have another conclusion. What if they did not jump to conclusion too early, they can save themselves from being awkward.

Now we can think on how the universe was created, why other galaxy is still building up while we thought God is already finish making this world. We don't need to jump to conclusion for now. We can always found the answer if we think and observe hard enough. We don't need to be afraid of thinking about it too.

If we think like this, I think we can find a lot of answer before anyone else. Read more and be open for idea. I think a believer should be like this. Not just think about heaven and hell without a clue on where is the heaven and hell. Yes they maybe told that heaven and hell is God's power and they will be there if God want it, but wouldn't it be more interesting if you find a way to it. A scientific way, yet religious. A way to heaven it is.
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Those Days..

2012-01-25T14:57:00.002+08:00

I woke up with a headache... Looking up my bed, is another bed. Its a double decker... I don't even know where am I? But something hit me in my mind... this kind of situation happen before..years ago..It is the time when i was in boarding school, sleeping on the bed under a bed. Double decker bed is a trademark of a boarding school. Mine no exception.

Waking up on a double decker bed make me feel that memory back. Life is so much fun at those day. No responsibility. Our only responsibility is to study. Everything else was arrange by someone else, our parent, teacher, and perhaps the government system itself. Making us live in a kind of condition where everything was ready for us.

those time i learn lot of valuable lesson in life. Most importantly, learning about friendship. A lot of thing happen surrounding friendship issue when you are in school. making friends is kind of important at that time.

Those time also teach me how to appreciate my family. As not living with them kind of making us appreciate them more.

Other than that, is only fun. The fun of staying up late at night, even until 2-3 days without sleep. If you tired, then sleep. Fun almost everyday because you are living with friends. How much fun is that you can have? So much fun.

But fun life does not stay for long time. It only came in a period and then went off.

Still, study time is fun. Matriculation college, university, everything was fun everyday. Everyday i am waiting for another day.

Sometime i cannot deny that we have our own concern and stress during those day, for example- exams or presentation. So nervous to face it. Wish that it could end quickly.

Yes, i remember i wish that study life can end quickly so i can start working, earning money for myself, have my own car, buy whatever i want... but when i achieved that thing that i dream, now i dream to go back to those day.

I still have a headache after waking up on a double decker bed in HO complex in my hospital. Working 36 hours shift even though it is not too busy still make me pretty sleepy. And i hate it.

this time, i woke up on a double decker bed a a doctor, tired of working long hours, thinking that money is not enough to pay bills and saving, thinking that going back home after this from work to my house along with no one there waiting for me. Even though i still have my housemate who used to be my roomate in college but still, he has work to do, and we seldom meet even we live in the same house.

Headache. Isn't it great to woke up back to those days...

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Before my night shift started yesterday, i had a talk with this colleague of mine regarding where should she go after completing doctor in training or so called HO. She said that she is tired of working like this and dreaming of doing something else such as opening a restaurant in India.

Sometimes i also had a thought like that. Why bother working hard enough like this and in the end, you won't get that much benefit like everybody do. Someone working in a company for years and get a quite good promotion through out will eventually drive a limo in his early 40. But most doctors become a specialist and even consultant still ride a Wira and live in a semi D house compare to those living in a bungalow with their own pool. Exception to those working in private maybe.

I guess this work is really going to the basic humanity to help other. It is. Because, compare to other branch of professionalism in this country, this is the only job that rarely get a pay raise. But who cares of all the humanity stuff... My family is a human, my wife later also a human, and i have to help them too. Make their life comfortable..

Huh...

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The dream that i created those day are not really becoming true.. It was just a dream after all..

the only thing that come true is my name now has a title Dr infront of it. But what is the point. No one respect a doctor nowadays. They believe more to politicians and those big fella that have money in their pocket. Money is the thing that can save your life after all in this new era of life.

Anyway, my point is, maybe later i could do something more. Something that i enjoy doing, and I never get tired doing it all day..

RM300 000 for shopping? What the H....

2012-01-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

I usually don't want to talk about politics in my blogs. you know, they can suddenly come and arrest you (maybe). However, reading in news paper regarding The first wife of Malaysia spending RM300 000 overseas for shopping is not acceptable.

I don't know which one is true and i did not bother on proving who are the true one but i just kind of shock that someone can spend RM300 000 just for shoppung. What the hell. I am trying to collect money now for my wedding and someone just spend that amount of money to go shopping. I am living a restricted life collecting money to buy a house and someone spend that amount of money just for shopping.

This is a pure unfairness and who gave her the right to do so...most importantly who gave her that amount of money? We are..

Anyway, maybe everything is just a lie. Maybe someone want to bring down her reputation and i believe she will take action soon, perhaps.

Oh...wish i could have rm300 000 that i can spend just like that. Hehe.

Journey to the Mysterious Island

2012-01-22T17:31:00.001+08:00

I'm back on my track of watching at least one movie a week. I've been late cause I supposed to watch it during thursday but I was so busy I did not manage to go for it that day.

However last friday night, shamsul brought me to go and watch this one movie which is kind of sequel or similar to the previous movie Journey to the center of the earth.

In my opinion, this movie is kind of average. Luckily Dwayne johnson was one of the character and that one girl I don't know her name which bring sexiness to this movie. However the rest is average.

I don't like it though.

The plot is so simple. No twist, no nothing. Just a plain movie.

Nevertheless, the 3D effect is amazing and surely if you want to watch this movie, u should watch it in 3D.

Everything look amazing in 3D.

Well, if you realize, there is less picture in my recent blog entry. This is because I wrote it in the cinema itself with my blackberry. Haha.

Now I am inside the cinema watching underworld the awakening in HD. Hopefully it will be better than J2MI.

Tata. Sincere.
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Growing up old.

2012-01-22T11:59:00.003+08:00

My fiancee said to me, " It is a surprise to find out that you are a family man type."

I say i never change but finally after a bit of thinking, now i realize that i change a bit.

Compare to myself previously, I love outside, i can stand staying inside of my house for one day and never went out anywhere. I enjoy watching movie a lot. I always looking for friends to hang out. Always there in Pool centre in every shopping mall ( to think about it, i rarely go and play pool nowadays).

I am not that type who go out clubbing and having all the head banging fun but i do like a little bit of adventure.

But now, i am totally different. I love staying at home watching something in the internet, reading news, watching online movie, cooking, cleaning, doing laundry......

Oh no.. should i make this stop or I should stay like this. This is an evolution to become a real adult maybe. Now with all the commitment in my shoulder to start building a family, money for that and for my family, and my cat who eat a lot, i feel that entertainment is not the way it was before.

Even if i hang out with my friend nowadays ( like last night with Aaron having late night dinner after work), we talk about future, we talk about what we are going to do. Hanging out with Shamsul the other day, we talk about the goverment, politics, how unfair doctors are treated nowadays in Malaysia....

all talk about..thing..that people consider old people talk.

There is no talk about banging chicks, clubs, what we wear, what we drink, where we eat, music and jamming anymore.

I guess thing will always turn to be this way when we grow up. Hopefully it is for the better so that we can be a responsible man later in the future.

Always think and never stop thinking.

The music of My Life

2012-01-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

The story of Music in My life begun a long time ago. Years ago when i was still a kid. A kid who were told that in this world, what you need to do is study and get respect by other. Yes, that is one good goal of our life. My life is always about music other than other thing. There is always music in everything i do in my life.

Years ago when i just started to listen, I heard a sound of a young girl who currently the most famous singer in Malaysia, no other than Dato' Siti Nurhaliza.http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif I have to admit that her song is one of the earliest song that i ever heard. I do not particularly a fan of her. The first singer that i love was in fact Raihan and not Siti.

Everyone have to admit that Raihan really take the nation music industry in a rather different direction. Everyone love them. I also love them. This is the first music that i listen in my early life. I start to enjoy music at that time.

From that point of time, I start to appreciate more and more music. I start listening to Dance song like Dr.Bombay, Vengaboys, and later i start to dig in one of the world newest music wave, Hip Hop.

It begun when my good friend (visit his blog at here gave me a listen to a new artist called Eminem. As lot of people and my family know that i love poem so much, maybe that is why i kind of hooked with this particularly new type of music culture. They are telling story which i love the most. And from that day, i never look back. I continue to digest thousands of music until today.

I start listening to Rock, hardcore, Metal, Sytem of A Down, Malay Pop, chinese song, Tamil song, Hindi song, underground, japanese, germany, russion, punk, dance, alternative rock, country, churces song, local song, indonesia, beethoven, any orchestra song, Kenny G, John standefer, love song, hate song..and the list go on.

I never satisfy day by day searching for new music. Its like an addiction. I becoming more obsess and i want more. In the end, i end up not only listening to music but going deeper into the basic, listening to sound, listening to notes.

I start to learn how to play music, even though i am sucks and not very good at it, but i try to appreciate more and more notes.

Start to listen to Sape, sitar, ukulele, vuvuzela, african tribe song.....

Now im asking for more. I keep wandering inside youtube and facebook looking for any music suggestion from others people.

Now i don't believe in genre anymore. Every sound is composed of notes and every notes is the same everywhere in the world. There is only A, B, C, D, F, G....

if you have any suggestion on music to hear...please tell me..please..im addicted for more...

Simple Word Does not mean you are less educated.

2012-01-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

' use big words to make people respect you '.

There a lot of people out there trying to use big words to attract people to look at them and think that they are educated enough and reliable. I do not know why but everyone seem to believe this kind of concept.

When a person use big words rhyming, quoting philosophy, literature, make a good sentences, thing that other people could not understand but it sound fantastic, then people start to believe this kind of person. Why?

If a person use a simple word, people will think that this person is not educated enough compare to the previous one I've mentioned. What is going on with the world today?

I always use simple words but does not mean that i don't know about stuff. I love literature and during my secondary school and university time, i read a lot of literature and i love poem, lyrics, because those thing are beautiful. But i do not speak like those thing that i read. For me, it sound stupid. I love to use simple words. Sometimes too simple making people think that i am dumb and do not know anything. This is the mentality of our people.

I do not know and i do not understand why people cannot accept simple words as a solution for their non educated brain. Why must i use words that only some can understand?

Until the end, i will always love and keep my word simple. It does not mean that i do not know but it simply mean that i want other to understand me.

I Have nothing to say

2012-01-09T09:59:00.002+08:00

Movie i watched this week

The darkest Hour - Suck
Flying sword of dragon gates or whatever - theme park movie, no story, just for fun 3d
Alvin and the chipmunks - way below kindergarten movie. Bring your below kindergarten child and he maybe love it.

Oh my god. I am too busy to write this blog nowadays. Previously i have a lot of time to think and write something. Always pouring my ideas into what happening around me. Now i am stuck with these few lines of review. I am really busy now.

Hopefully i will have time later and write about something. I have a lot of idea now but i don't have the time.

Sherlock Holmes

2011-12-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

Well. Today is my movie day again as usual. Menu for tonight is The Darkest Hour. Hmmm.

Did I mention that the second Sherlock Holmes movie is not bad. I did not sleep through out the movie. But still, I don't really think that the movie is that good.

Well. I hope the darkest hour can bring some changes in my movie exprience. I'm tired of bad movie.

Other than that, I want to talk about iphone vs samsung galaxy. I can tell u that apple is lame now compare to android phone especially samsung galaxy. Oh my god the Galaxy S2 is so terrific. And if you want to compare ipad with... Can't compare anymore. Just look at the new Galaxy note. So brilliant. Even galaxy tab defeat the ipad 2. Now with galaxy note I don't know what to say.

I'm supposed to talk about movie and not techno stuff. Haha.

Okay. I'm going to enjoy or not enjoy the movie now.

Sincere.
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Mission Impossible Ghost protocol

2011-12-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

After a long year without any significant movie to talk about, finally there is something by the end of this year that can be a memorable movie of 2011.

The muppets by the way is a fine movie. It was not suck at all. It's alright. If you want to bring your friend just for fun, the muppets is not a wrong movie to watch. The story is simple to understand. The jokes can make me smile ( my threshold to a joke is so high until I usually just pretend to laugh to jokes around me.. Oops... No offense). The jokes in this movie is not too stupid that is why I smile a little with it. I cannot tolerate stupid jokes like someone stepping into a hole or make a stupid face.

No. The muppets is certainly not the movie of the year. The movie of the year 2011 I guess is Mission Impossible Ghost protocol. This movie, as a sequence of the previous movie, keeps making audience thrilled and involved in the movie till the end. There is no unnecessary conversation or act. There is no pause in the action, and even though the story this time is a little bit straightforward compare to the previous trilogy, still I enjoy watching it till the end.

Currently I am sitting inside a large Growball cinema watching Sherlock Holmes. I don't know that there make a sequence for this movie. To tell the truth, I slept in the previous one. I hope this time they make a better movie or else, it will waste my Tuesday night movie routine.

Everyone deserve their just dessert.
Sincere.
ascap23.
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So non productive

2011-12-17T16:34:00.003+08:00

Am I?

I make pretty much enough money for me every end of the month, but i still think that i am not productive. I am going to the Type A lifestyle. Work, sleep, have money.

I want to do something outside from my jobscope.

Maybe taking pictures...nah, i dont have much time seeing around the world. most of my time stranded inside a hospital watching a beautiful scenery from the window..

So i am looking for a project that i can do along with my time restricted job but i still can't find what it is..

huh..so tired thinking of it.

The Muppet? Haven't finish watching it.

2011-12-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

I guess I have to catch up on watching movie. Previously I watch a lot of movie and review every movie that I saw. Well, now I am kind of slowing down. Too busy at work maybe.

So what movie that I watched recently?

I guess I watch In Time starring Justin Timberlake and I gave it watchable but pretty stupid but interesting. Haha.

Then I watch Real steel - boring.... But must watch.

the adventure of tin tin - sleep after 15 minutes watching.

Twilight breaking dawn - Gay.

Petaling Street warrior - hmm, nice but what the hell is they are trying to show. Sexy women, the history, the jokes or.. I don't know. Most of the time the story lost it focus.

The muppets... Watching now while I'm blogging here. Haha. Blackberry sure make my blogging easy.
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Malique Aku Maafkan Kamu

2011-11-27T16:47:00.003+08:00

During the trip to Sarikei, I heard this song in the radio... Well, the first time listening to this song i already think that this song was a good song.

Ok. Why do i say this is a good song? Most people say it is sucks, the voice of Jamal Abdillah in this song is awkward and lame, hip hop is dead, or maybe someone would say this is not a music at all, it is just a guy talking nonsense.

Haha... you are being nonsense.

For those who speak fluent Bahasa Melayu would know that this is a piece of literature. It is an art. Rarely you will see a hip hop artist doing something like this. Most hip hip artist will speak about where they go (club), where they live (crib), what they wear, what they drink, and party. Malique though, bring another set of perspective into hip hop, a view from the literature part of lyrical world.

The last time i listen to a poem turn into song is by Kopratasa, and yes most song lyrics have some element of poetry inside it but it does not goes into the level of sinking everything into a piece of literature rather into an form of art.

The music in Aku Maafkan Kamu song by Malique as usual, simple and enough for the listener to go through the song without getting confused cause i believe most of people out there do not know what the crap is he talking about.

When i listen to the song for the first time, i also confused, what the hell is he trying to tell? But after a few times, i start to understand what Malique trying to tell in that song.

I like this song.

The downside of this song is, yes, obviously, i believe Jamal Abdillah is not really harmony with the song concept. Maybe we can try other higher tone artist to sing it. I don't know. I am not really good at in classifying vocal but i still feel that his voice kind of unnecessary in this song.

still..it is a good song.

I Am Engaged Now

2011-11-19T10:58:00.003+08:00

Yes, i am engaged..

5 days holiday and more than 1000 km journey, now i am engaged to my beloved girlfriend which i can call my fiancee now. Hehe.

It has been a long time since i wrote anything here. Well, i am now more on talking about myself intead of talking about my thought and idea like i used to do before.

Sorry, but my brain is running slow nowadays or maybe i just don't have enough time to think. So many work to do, so less time to spend on myself.

I just want to say here that i never get tired or bored with Kuching, Sarawak. I love that town enviroment, people, food, culture and places. So many places that i can visit and never get bored. I just don't know why.

For those who like to travel and experience the real culture of borneo, don't go to Sabah cause in Sabah you can enjoy more on modern life of borneo people or i can say enjoy the highland and the mixture of non-malaysian and malaysian.

I believe you can't see the real culture of borneo people in Sabah cause everything are filipino culture now. This state has been totally invaded.

to experience the real culture, then Sarawak is the place i guess.

Go to Kuching and don't miss to go to Waterfront, all the museums, cultural village, serikin, Bako... taste all the beautiful cuisine of sarawak, seafood, for a very cheap prices.

Oh...

Hehe.

A Day In Orthopaedic

2011-11-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

Orthopaedic posting is by far the best posting I ever had.

During that time, we have a lot of free time to spend.

As usual, the day started at 6.30 am or earlier. Round started so early in orthopaedic. Sometime 7.00 am the round already started. So as house officer in ortho, u must come early.

The round usually finish before 8.30. After round finish we will do our ward work and by 11.00 am all thing settled. So we usually went for breakfast at that time. (Repeated... Breakfast).

By 2 pm we usually do our PM review and nothing much. Most of the thing that we want to settle in ortho is the operation, of its done then its done. Not so much changes like in Medical.

By 3pm Mo oncall will come and just eye balling all the cases. Only occasionally specialist come and do round in the afternoon. Of they come in the morning then they will not come in the afternoon.

By 4 everything settled. We can either go back at 4.30pm or just chit chat and wait until 5pm.

I have so much time to go to the mall or have dinner with friends at that time.

Plus, we have one day off every week. So it is like so heaven. The oncall was around 4-5 times per month and average admission during oncall is 2 admission.

There is so much time to spend. I remember me and my friend Aron planned to study hard in orthopaedic but in the end we spend all of our time playing pool, badminton and watch movie.

In ortho also I made friend with a lot of great people. Most of them are MO now. So fun working with them. I remember Donna, Eyu, Faisal, Chua Seng Hui, Aron, tan yew eng, Bi yoke, Aisyah, Linda, Segar, the legendary Dhayalen.. You all are the best. All have their unique role in the team.

If they ask me to pick a team to work with, I will choose the above cause I know somehow, thing can be done in the end with all of their contribution.

A day in Orthopaedic is always a good day.
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Where is my direction?

2011-10-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

When I'm driving inside my car from Hospital to my house this morning, i stumble upon a question inside my head.

What thing that i actually good at?

yes, i am a doctor, but am i a good and brilliant one? I don't think so. there is a lot of my colleague which is better than me...

I can play music such as guitar, but i am not a guitarist.. i play few song, and lot of my friend burn the guitar with their skills.

I can sing but my voice worse than my guitar skill.

I can drive, but i drive at 60km per hour, and few months ago i still scratch my front bumper skirt of my car.

I was good at computer, but the pace it too face, everything changes, now i now nothing about computer. I just know how to use it. I may able to fix it but I frequently mess up everything nowadays cause all the component of the computer is getting smaller and delicate. Easy to break compare to before. Hardware is not that hard today.

I am worse at taking picture so i cannot be a photographer.

I am not that good at speaking in public. I love listening more than talking.

And i am not a good listener too cause i always think of something else when someone talk at me cause i am such a curious person. I saw a picture at the wall and i am totally not listening to the person beside me.

I am not romantic and frequently make my girlfriend tired of my ignorance of this kind of thing.

I am not a good planner cause all my plan always fail.

I am not good at partying, i hate partying. I prefer staying and watch movie at home.

I love watching movie but who the hell does not. I am not good at reviewing movie, I would say Avatar is a very good movie but my friend said that it is the worse movie ever,

I am not good at tasting food cause every food taste the same to me. That's why i can eat all different kind of food no matter which country they came from.

I was good at cooking, and my mom still said that i does but i realize that by time, i am getting suck at it cause i prefer take out rather than homemade. And if i am at my home, i prefer my mother's cooking.

I like badminton but i am suck at it. All my friend now almost pro with badminton but i still in beginner level.

I love jumping rope and i was good at it but there is no place for me to do it now cause my house is small and i really need a new apartment to start back jumping. Plus, i can't even jump 100 times now. previously i can do 1000 jumps non stop in 10 minutes.

I like fishing, the last time i went fishing was like 18 years ago.

I can't swim. I just know how to save myself from drowning.

Pretty much said here that i am still looking what im good at. What is my talent. What is the thing that i must do and good at until i can teach it to my children. I am pretty sad about it......

The Memory Remains...

2011-10-05T12:56:00.002+08:00

1. Ah, so lazy to wake up in the morning and then have to go to work.
2. So tired every evening going back late from work.
3. Everyday the cycle continues, there is a lot more thing lies ahead.
4. I miss those day when Me and her always complain that we have no money, we went to oneborneo just want to spend our time sitting and talking and if we want to buy something, we buy something at Giant. We can afford to eat in that mall. We even cannot afford to park our car inside that mall.
5. We walk across the road just to eat in a cheap restaurant. Once a while we went and buy ice cream at McDonalds. Sunday cone... the cheapest ice cream among all other ice cream there.
6. We share our money to buy petrol for my car so that we can go somewhere we want to go. But we only go around town. cause we don't have enough money to go further than that.
7. Sometimes we just sit in our own room, and chat using yahoo messenger. We were saving our lunch money so we can buy someting nice for dinner later.

oh.. i miss that day.

sometimes i used to fight with my roommate on a pack of instant noodle. Thing that i cannot forget until today.

Oh i miss that day.

Even though that day was hard, but i miss it.

Now i can buy Starbuck of tutti frutti but cannot match that day sundae cup from McDonald. Now i can buy fish n co for dinner but cannot match that cheap fried rice across the road. Now i can buy cloth shoes or some DVD in that mall but the time spend cannot match the time when we use to hang out in that mall buying nothing.

One ask me why i like to give signature and chop to my junior medical student.... i just want them to send more of their time with their love one and friends. Someday you will be alone. And you will miss that day.

HO Shift System,

2011-10-01T13:20:00.002+08:00

1.So we started shift system today.Until now nothing seem to be happening. Same same.

2. A lot of people opposed this idea of introducing shift system. I am neutral about it. My girlfriend started to work shift since month ago and nothing seem to be a problem for her. Plus she said that she had more time to go to bank and apply for multiple loan after shift system was introduced.

3. I am not pro Shift system either. For me the usual system of oncall did not bring much problem to me. It always keep me busy and sometime i complain a lot about it. But after complete all the on call i will always feel full of myself.

4. I believe people are to afraid of changes. It was a drastic changes when you suddenly change your timing of work. feel like everything will collapse. But maybe, it is better than before.

5. Human nature is always like that. Afraid of changes. We are similar to cat actually. Cat hate changes. They prefer playing the same thing all over again for the rest of their life. The different between cat and us is we can adapt. We can choose to be what we want to be. We can survive even we put ourselves in a very tough condition.

6.Hmm. Maybe i will miss my on call momment. New batch of HO later will never taste the bittersweet of on call. Hehe. But the old batch also cannot taste the bittersweet of shift work.

So I am lucky to taste both system. Same like before when everyone compare boarding school and non-boarding school. Everyone said boarding school is the best and non boarding school have no future. I've tasted both. Now i have enough experience to suggest to someone which school u need to go ( boarding or not boarding)

7.After this, we all can make good and fair comment about this system cause we are the one who experince both of it. How lucky we are.

Fuh... 2 days away from wotk

2011-09-14T16:04:00.002+08:00

1. @ days away from work is like a heavenly thing that can happen to me. I have been suffering doing female unit one rotation for the past few weeks. For your information, the medical unit 1 rotation is the hell in medicine. No time to breakfast, no time to rest, no time for lunch, there is only time for dinner when you went back home around 8 pm at night.

2. Today, i am having my breakfast ( i forgot when is the last time i had my breakfast) in Mee Sapi Haji Salleh near Satok, Kuching. Kuching is kind of my gate to get away from my routine stress life. I had Sushi for lunch plus Fried Durian.

Fried Durian? This is also new to me. But it was so delicious. So delicious until i cannot describe how delicious it is. For those who like durian, they must crave for this thing.

It is actually a frozen durian which is wrap inside a popia dough and it was fried immediately and the durian inside will melt but stil remains cold so when you bite you have this hot and cold experience in your mouth.

3. I love spending my time in Kuching. It is so relaxing compare to KK. I don't know why but i believe Kuching is a people town. Every people can enjoy themselves here. KK is more like a shopping town where everybody is running for something. This is only an opinion.

4. I am planning to find seafood for my dinner. Hmm, there is one place in Kuching where i like the most.

5. Every memory i had here in Kuching counts. I am planning to go somewhere far other than Kuching, maybe Langkawi, but i believe i won't enjoy myself there. I've been there once and i still don't think i will enjoy myself there. I've been here in Kuching for more than 5 times still i enjoy myself here. So nice. So nice.

6.Anyone interested to visit Kuching?

Tribute To Metallica

2011-07-25T20:20:00.004+08:00

1. I am not a metal man. I love all kind of music. Just that i need to talk about metallica. I don't know why but i believe they deserved to call the best ever rock band in the world.

2. I believe a lot of people are inspired to play guitar because of metallica. yes you do. And i did too. Metallica has inspired me to learn something on music particular guitar. I can play a little bit of guitar because of metallica.

3. If you see other rock band playing concert or anything, you would not feel the same way when you look at metallica playing live on stage. Their skills in music is superb. Maybe because they are into this kind of stuff for a very long time so they know what they are doing.

4. You can easily tell the different when a rock band play live compare to the one in their CD but when you listen to metallica, whether live or in CD, they sounhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gifd almost the same. How can do it? They are too skillfull i think.
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5. So for that, i am totally respect them even though i am not a big fan of them and sometime i feel their sound is annoying. But they are so good in what they are doing.

And a big thanks to them for inspiring me to learn about music, or else, i will be someone who till the end, never know how to play any instrument at all.

Big salute to Metallica

Metallica live

here is a link for those who did not know anything about metallica.

Proton Service centre

2011-07-19T12:17:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking on how can i go and service my car for the first 10000km if i am too busy doing ward work 7 days in a week.

I was thinking, let me give a try, open up google search and search for proton service centre around kota kinabalu.

To my surprise and naivety, there is actually a lot of proton service center here in Kota kinabalu but not many know where it is.

There is even one branch located near my working area.

So it is done. I just went and service my car and it took me only around 30 minutes compare to when i went to Inanam big branch which take me around 1 hour to wait for it.

So, for those who did not know ( a lot of us did not know as i was asking everyone and they keep answering me that the place to service my car is in Inanam) there is a proton service center in Kepayan, Bundusan, and Sadong jaya. The one in Kepayan is the one i went just now and it was nice as there is not many people going to service their car there.

anyway, feel so relieved after servicing my car. I care about it so much. hehe.

Finishing ortho

2011-06-07T18:05:00.003+08:00

I finished orthopedic posting and now going to medical posting next.

I am looking forward to work in medical department.

For now, i am in my holiday for 5 days. I want to spend it as much as i could. It has been a long time since i have this opportunity. to do whatever i want and do nothing because i want to.

Avatar

2011-06-02T21:06:00.003+08:00

Just finish OT at 7 pm just now. So tired. Ate my dinner and lay myself on my bed watching a soft copy of Avatar in my laptop.

This bring back some sweet memory in my life.

The movie went out during my final year in medical school. At that time, the only good movie i ever watched is transformer 1. Me and my girlfriend always had a different opinion about movies that we watched. I like one kind of movie and she don't. We always argue regarding which movie is the best.

When avatar officially out ( i think it was thursday), and guess what, me and my girlfriend went and watch a malay movie entitled 'Pisau cukur' instead. I believe that my expectation regarding good cgi movie is optimum in transformer. So I thought that avatar would not beat that.

The next day (friday), my girlfriend and I finally bought a ticket to watch Avatar. I insist her to go (she actually didn't want to go as Avatar is a science fiction film which she did not like the most). Finally both of us stuck in that cinema in 1borneo waiting for the film to start. I keep saying 'if this movie not good, don't blame me' hehe.

In the end, we both satisfy with the movie. For the first time, both of us had to agree that Avatar is good. I love the action and the computer generated effect stuffed in that movie, and my girlfriend love the beauty of pandora pictured in the movie. Both of us walk with a smile from the cinema hall. And guess what, we both watch it again. Just because my girlfriend said that she still want to experience the beauty of pandora, one time is not enough.

I watched more than that. I bring my sister to watch the movie, and she like it very much even though we had one of the worst seat in the hall, i watch again with my cousin, and i watch it few times in my laptop.

Avatar always bring back memory to me. Miss it much.

p/s: - before Avatar went out, there is one time, i don't remember exactly, when me and my girlfriend was driving around town thinking of what to do. I said to my girlfriend, " We don't have a movie of our own... like last time when titanic came out, every couple will always remember that movie that they went and watch with their love one.... we still don't have that kind of movie... and we are already in final year of study, going to work in different place later"....

I am so happy that before i end my medical school, suddenly Avatar went out. And it was the movie that we have been waiting for. A movie that can bring back memory of us together.

- Some people hated Avatar so much i don't know why but whatever they try to pull regarding this movie, i still believe this movie is one the best movie ever. It is much more better than any other movie up to date.

until today, people around me still putting this movie as a baseline. If the movie is better than Avatar then we should watch it but until now, i never heard someone saying that a movie is better than Avatar. maybe later theere will be another movie that is much better than this..and i can't wait. hehe.

Kung Fu Panda 2

2011-05-30T09:27:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to say about this movie, same old panda, same old kung fu style. That is all.

I gave this movie 2.5 star out of 5. I don't really enjoy the movie as i expected. The jokes sometimes can make me smile, and giggle, but not enough to make me LOL.

Humm, i guess time after time, my sense and taste about a movie is disappearing. I remember last time I used to enjoy all kind of movie but now, i watched variety of movie and 2/3 of it i hated so much.

Did human civilisation seize on new fresh idea today. No one invented a good movie anymore.

Humm....

By the way, if you are 13 years old and above, or a university student who usually excited on everything, you can watch this movie i guess. But if you are like me, longing for a fresh new idea and level of standard in movie, please wait until the dvd come out or else.... download it..

Stop Piracy!!!

Vegetarian

2011-05-01T14:06:00.001+08:00

I had some discussion with my friend regarding vegetarian pork. Well some people having different opinion regarding this matter. As usual, most people would classified it because of its name which is pork.

I have different opinion regarding this. Vegetarian pork have nothing to do with pork at all. It was made from flour and some of it made from tofu. It does not taste like pork after all according to some of my chinese friends.

So what is it that I cannot eat this tofu? weird isn't it. Same as when people introduced halal beer, it does not taste like beer, it is malta kind of thing after all.

The fault is to those who named this kind of stuff. It is confusing. Why don't they just call that halal beer 'fermented barley or fermented wheat drink' so that people did not confused it with beer. Or else just call that vegie pork 'sweet sour tofu'. Maybe people would not judge people for eating it then.

But what to do, it is hard right if for example you invented something that look like plate and can be use as a plate but call it a 'cup' or a 'bowl'.

I don't know why but I like vegie food. I love them creating something that similar to meat and fish but made from flour and soy bean. But lot of them did not appreciate this. Some even said ' why become a vegie if you want to eat a vegie beef or something like that'. How can people be so judging?

I find it good idea to make halal version of everything.

Chow.

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MH Mobile check in

2011-04-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

Well now Malaysia airlines also have mobile check in. I don't know either MAS or Airasia started it first but i do know how to use it in Air asia because i frequently travel with air asia. When Airasia ticket shoot up and MAS provide me a cheaper alternative, then i choose MAS for sure.

So if in AirAsia, i usually download my mobile ticket barcode and scan it at the airport and get my boarding pass with it. But it is different in MAS (i am talking about Malaysia Airline Airport in Kota Kinabalu). I guess they did not have that machine yet to scan my 2d barcode. So i ask the counter and they said i just need to bring my phone to the boarding gate and show it to the people there. Well, i am sitting now waiting for my flight, i hope they are telling me the truth. Because i don't want any problem with my flight later. It is so embarassing if the deny my entry to the flight later.

Hmm, think positively, i already have my seats number and boarding gate number in my MHmobile barcode so i guess no problem with it. meaning that i already confirm to board the flight. We'll see later.

Hmm... travelling.... if i am not on call, i'm flying somewhere. So nice life i got here.

Money! Money!

2011-04-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

Listening to few of my friends regarding house investment. Buy a house, rent it to others, wait until the price shoot up, and sell it. Sound fun but... i have no money to get start with.

I don't know how can a doctor that work less than 1 year have so much money to buy a house? I try to save almost a thousand per month still i could not get one. Plus i am planning to get married and that make me more uncapable of joining their trend in house investment.

How? How?

I want to know how can they manage their wealth so easily? Is my salary different from them..?

When i think about it then i realize... i am born in a middle class working family. My mom is a full time housewife and i salute both of my parent because they manage to save money for my education... after my education..it is up to me to find my own money.

So i am like starting fresh when i start working as a doctor. Not like others who start working with 10-20 K of saving money in the bank from their parents. Not like them.

So i can considered my self a total independent guy who stand on my own feet. Proud of myself. Hehe... plus i can give financial support to my parent.

Maybe it will be a little slow for me to catch up in investing my money, but what did they said.. bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Working your own sweats is sweeter than anything else...

How much you pay for a wedding?

2011-04-17T18:53:00.002+08:00

When i look up into my wallet, there are 2 pieces of RM10 notes and few RM1 notes and i am 10 feet away from the wedding ceremony house. The bride and the bridegroom already there smiling to me, awaiting me to come and i still calculating how much should i gave them? How much do i need to pay.

My housemate jokes at me, we pay how much we eat there. It's funny and does not make sense. haha. But a good laugh is always the best.

Almost all race in malaysia oblige you to give a present for any wedding. You must not come empty handed. You must at least give some 'ang pow' or present in a form of kitchen utensil or some household stuff. The reason being that this will help the couple to start their new life together as you can see, wedding is a lot of money. They need some support from everyone.

Nowadays, people don't like to give present anymore. They like to give money as this is much easier to plan later. Imagine if you give a whole set of glass or cup to a wedding couple, what you did not know is 4 more guests gave the same thing. So, if you give money, they obviously can buy whatever they want later.

But how much is the questions. In some chinese wedding ceremony, the guest can give up to rm500-rm1000. They usually did this to show how much profit they have or just to show off. While in malay wedding ceremony, usual 'ang pow' is rm5-rm50 only.
In indian wedding..i am not really sure cause i never went to one but i love to try. Just waiting for some of my indian friend to get married.

In conclusion, it depend on which race the bride and bridegroom are. Malay, dusun, chinese, indian, brunei, kad, murut, iban, and so much more, you must know their prices. Try to be there if they invite you to their wedding cause this might be a good opportunity to experiece other culture. Just make sure you bring enough money in your wallet.

And what if the bride is a malay and bridegroom is a chinese? hmmm....

Oncall with a bless

2011-04-11T16:08:00.001+08:00

My onkol last night was a bless. I was so unhappy because my family came on friday and we were like trying enjoy our time since this is the last appointment of my mother here in kk but I'm on call. Plus my mother gastric problem also resolving and that was a relieve.

So on last friday I checked out from work early and went and meet my family. I brought them to Grace point. So unlucky because the food was terrible.

The next morning, we woke up early and went to smc for my mom to take blood there. Then we went to old town white coffee and have a lovely breakfast there. After that my mom went for her appt. Then a non stop shopping until night.

At night, I brought my family to tanjung aru to have a wonderful dinner.

That night, I was in a down mood because I ave to go oncall the next day.

Luckily as I mention in the title, my oncall is a bless. Only one admission. So nice.

My sister engagement party..

2011-03-13T12:01:00.003+08:00

im in a taxi now just back from labuan attending my sister engagement ceremony.. it was nice and so pack.. it was more like a party at night as my sister friends came to karoke and ate my own home cook kenny rogers.

well, now i have to be back to work as usual tomorrow.. so lazy, just work for 8 months and i am this lazy already.. how to get my spirit up?

Nurse vs doctor

2011-03-05T08:43:00.000+08:00

When you are a medical student, nurse is one of your best teacher, even if you become a doctor. Somehow, when you become a house officer or for those who do not know, provisional doctor, nurses somehow can be your best friend and your enemy.

I have work in ONG department where nurses is much more important than you as midwives play the main role in conducting deliveries and doctor only work in cases other than normal pregnancy, and as you all can see, normal pregnancy is much more higher in incidence compare to the abnormal one (if not then why we have 6 billions human in this whole world today). In ONG, i can tell that the nurses were very skillful and basically do almost everything for you. You as a helping hand to them, somehow in the end make their job easy and as a reward if you do your best to help them, they will make your life as easy as possible through out your work.

However, things are getting ugly in other department somehow. I used to heard from my other friend that the nurses in women and children hospital departments was so nice. I did not realize it until later.

Why did nurse claimed a war against house officer doctor? And why did the doctor fight back? In the end, thing is getting worse and i believe patient is the one who will sustain the impact for this kind of movement.

A few reason that i can see is the ego of a doctor. Well, a doctor start working with a high rank in goverment but with lack of experiences and we supposed to have a open to learn anything from whoever in the hospital that have more experience than you do. Some of the doctor think that they are clever enough after 5 years of struggling to get a medical degree thus thinking that the nurse is like a maid that they can order everything. Those doctor with this attitude is the one who are bringng the war deeper into a chronic state.

In the other hand, the nurses think that all these new doctor is lack of experience enough and like a senior treating junior, they can do whatever they want and perhaps make them the doctor do their work. And for some unknown reason, some of the nurses always keep a hatred towards any doctor and for real i don't know why because doctors usually will now know whatever the nurses are saying at their back, it is like they have their own secret society ot whatever.

I am too much uncomfortable with this situation furthermore after leaving ONG deparment where the nurses were so nice and always be in the team with the doctor. It is always be in my memory where us, the doctor, rushing and pushing patient for caesar, running everywhere when there are an eclamptic patient coming to the admission centre, and laughing together doing discharges or even hanging around at the counter with the nurses.

Now, i can see that clearly state in a guideline book in the ward -doctor should not group and sit at the counter-. I was like...what? I never had this kind of rule before in previous department.

Anyhow... what i propose here is the nurse and doctor should always work as a team and not treat each other with no respect. It goes to both doctor and nurse. Doctor should always have their utmost respect to the nurse and the nurse should at least have some respect to the doctor as doctor is also a human being.

The most importantly, both should respect their patient as doctor are not meant to do the nurses job and the nurses are not supposed to become a maid for a doctor because in the end both of them are servant for their patient.... and the goverment..haha.

Hobby? Any Suggestion?

2011-02-06T10:24:00.004+08:00

Im on call today..wahahhaha..

Guess what? I am leaving this department and im kind of relieved. In the end, i learn a lot from ONG, a lot more than other housemen i guess who completed their posting in 4 months and leave without assessment. I know how to scan, i know how to IOL, i know how to do almost everything but not everything per say. There is a lot more thing that i can learn in the future.

But i don't want to talk about that, i want to talk about my on call today. So nice because there is not much patient that want to deliver currently.

Hmm.. Me and aron are leaving soon.. i want leave this department so much.

I don't know what i am talking about. haha...

There is nothing much interesting to day currently. Maybe later...

I am planning to make a new hobby but still, i don't know which hobby is the best for me...

Last Night On Call

2011-01-11T13:01:00.002+08:00

Fun... because there is not much happen ing in the ward. Just chilling out doing my On call review and having fun looking at post partum psychosis patient. I pity her though but what to do, i keep smiling looking at her abnormal behaviour.

I was really shock when her family start saying that medicine will not cure her disease, and start to believe the security guard whom said that the patient have 3 demons inside her. I was like...what? You believe that guard and we struggling here trying to help the patient.

We gave everything that we can, haloperidol, lorazepam, but after 30 minutes only she started to sleep.

I don't know, but hard to change people mentality regarding this 'rasuk' or possesses by demon stuff. It is clearly a psychosis. A evidence based science. Still, people believe ghost or demon which control those patient with psychosis.

What to do, I can't do anything about it. Just keep sitting and observing that patient behaviour.

hmm.. its kind of fun.

So tired

2011-01-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

i am so tired this week. Working in oncology ward for 2 days then thrown to Gynae ward, then to PAC and quite a few times thrown to clinic.

I don't know why in the end, the more senior i became, the more work i have to do. Previously, when i started working in this department, i am the one who are doing the most work as all my senior always said, the more work you do, the more experience you get. But i believe new people coming into this department did not really do enough work. Some of them yes..but some of them try to avoid work, difficult work.

I remember last time, my senior always call all of us the junior and 'sound' us nicely when we did something wrong or we are doing nothing at all. I still remember my senior 'sound' me because i did not help him to refer paeds and prepare ABG when there was a case of vacuum delivery due to fetal distress...

Are we too soft to them? I believe i never scold my junior before. Even i tell them nicely, they won't listen and they keep doing their thing like we were never there to be existed.

Well, i guess i am not that type of person who are strict with the young ones. I just hope that my junior know that they need to gather more experience by doing work thus puting us into a position which is less work compare to them. But i guess, they never will.

Anyway, who am i to say this kind of stuff. I too myself need to learn more, try not make mistake, try to be perfect in managing my patient. But we are only human, we can't afford to not make a mistake. So what to do?

Hyperemesis gravidarum

2010-12-17T00:01:00.001+08:00

I feel like vomiting....

Actually i don't know what to write here... really i don't know. I am so blur nowadays. I can't think straight and i always forget everything else. My mind thinking about my job only..my job..my job..my job... i forgot everything else.

To think about it again, i should think about something else. I should think about something more than my work. I want to think more on everything else.

Oh my god, my morning today was not so great as it started with a news of a patient passed away the night before. Patient that i clerk and take care for 1 month, plus a few days when i am on call. just to think about it, she passed away just like that. But i feel her pain, she use to say that she is enough with her illness and she said that she is tired. Well, i guess that was because she's anemic. My last encounter with her was because her Hb was 4 something.

Then i did not see her again and never will. She died suffocating. Unable to breathe. Reason...could be sepsis.

See....i still feel about my work. i just can't think about something else.

Unbelievable

2010-12-05T18:10:00.002+08:00

I can't believe i just walk to a mall and 5 minutes later i bought a RM200 pair of shoes.

I can't believe i am driving my own car paid by my own sweats.

I can't believe that i am talking to patients..

I can't believe i am the one who signs their log book now.

I can't believe all of this haha.

Still remember the day before that all of this was just a dream..it was just a dream. It was a dream no more.

On call review

2010-11-05T09:09:00.005+08:00

24 y.o/ male/ single

c/o: drowsiness for the last one week. Drowsiness usually started at 6.00 am in the morning and continuously drowsy until 7pm. After 7 pm, claim the drowsiness disaapear for few hours before narcoleptic episode around 10 pm.

Currently, patient has not been sleeping since the last 24 hours because he was doing his on call.

otherwise, there is no other active complain. No loss of weight, and no loss of appetite.

Past medical History - Nil
Past Surgical History - Nil
Allergic hx - allergic to penicillin and sometimes allergic to certain type of people.
Family history - not significant
Social history - Work as a house officer in Hospital Likas, work from 6.30 am until 8.00 pm everyday. Work 36 hours during on call. No smoking, no alcohol. Live somewhere around kota kinabalu.

O/E:

Patient comfortable, appear drowsy, pink, good hydration, exhausted.

BP 140/90
PR 92
T Hot and angry because have to attend an emergency case last night in A&E while the person that supposed to in charge for gynae was doing nothing but sleep.

Lungs clear
CVS DRNM

Abdomen - Soft, no mass palpable, distended.

No calf tenderness

No muscle weakness, no lymph nodel palpable.

Imp: Post call Drowsiness

Ix - Diagnosed clinically.

Management:
1. Continous rest in bed
2. Encourage Orally calm food, nice and warm
3. Encourage fluid in take.
4. Encourage to watch movie "action movie".
5. Allow discharge if possible from hospital
6. To come again tomorrow to work as usual.

I miss my past

2010-10-23T19:29:00.002+08:00

Thousands thing that i miss so much.... as my life today does not look like a life actually, always tired, always busy, always tired... so sometimes i just sat and think about what i really miss doing in my past...

I really miss going out with Pika to Casa Raya and eat our dinner there while watching the television or just talk on whatever we want to talk about, mostly we talk about whatever we did that day. Update ourselves on each other. Miss that.

I really miss going out with Pika every weekend from morning until night, spending our time in shopping mall, window shopping as we did not have money during that day. To think about it, i have money now, but i don't know how to spend it. Because everyday, i just work and if i had a day off i just sleep, eat and window shopping again because i don't know what to buy when i am alone.

I really miss going out with Pika watching movie. Almost every movie in the cinema we watched every week.

I really miss doing my 4th year medical study in the same group with Pika. We went to Papar for district posting together, to Kudat for community posting, to Bukit Padang for psychiatry posting, for that year, i was having the best year in my life.

I really miss going holiday with my family. Last convocation holiday did not count as it end up by the rest of us having gastroenteritis. I miss the time when I finish my posting in medical school (like 2 months for every posting) then my family went to KK to fetch me home to Labuan. In KK we will had our kind of holiday, shopping and everything.

I really miss going to our Banana orchard in Labuan. At 4 PM, after a day just sitting in front of the TV, my dad and my sister will be back from work and all of us will go outside to the orchard and either clean it or i just go around playing with my cat..... i really miss my cats, yet i met them during convocation week but i miss to go outside and play with them, not just meet them in the hotel room.

I really miss spending my Raya with my family when there is nothing else to think about. not like spending Raya but still thinking about exam or whatever. I miss the time when i don't have anything to think about, just spending Raya as it is. So nice.

I really miss going online with Pika in the middle of the night, in library or School of Psychology which provide 24 hours internet access to student.

I really miss trying all kind of places to eat with Pika. As almost every place in KK we have tried.

If i keep writing, there will be a thousands thing that i miss. But what to do. Now i am working, i don't know what they used to say when i was in medical school, they said that when i became a doctor, i will have resposibility. To think about it now, am i tired because of that responsibility?

I am tired because of the system..... is there any occupation that required you to work until 36 hours non stop, and work from 6.30am to 8 pm everyday... bussinessman does that..they said....but if i were a businessman... sure i can take a day or two off to rest my brain, but my work.... a day off means you are going to work double hard tomorrow.

My Convocation 2010

2010-10-17T11:56:00.003+08:00

Everybody said that convocation happen once in your life, i am hoping for a second.

It is possible that something that only can happen once, can happen twice if you really believe in it. So i believe i can. I believe because my 7 days holiday for my graduation did not work as i planned since a long time ago.

It started on the first day of my holiday...

Thursday 7th October 2010

I woke up as easrly as 7.15 am. i woke up at 10 am usually during my off day but not today. I have a plan. The plan was to meet a few of my friend who is having graduation with me and together we will go together to our university to settle everything before our convo start on 9th of october.

I still remember that day was the most happiest day in my life since i start working as a house officer. I woke up with a smile in my face. I shower with a smile in my face. I drive to McDonald Jalan Sulaman with a smile in my face. I can even hear a music playing in my brain. So happy.

I met my friend in McDonald, we had breakfast together and together we went to UMS to take our hood and to pay whatever fee they asked us to pay for our graduation ceremony.

when my family arrive at 12 something, i was already in my home doing my laundry. My family stay in their booked apartment in KK city. I remember that we booked that apartment around 3 months ago just for my convocation week. It was not an apartment per say, it is more like a studio room or hotel. So they were there, and i was in my home in Likas doing my laundry. I did not go and join them early because if i do, then my one week laundry will become two week laundry as i was planning to stay for one week there with my family. I was planning for this one week holiday since months ago.

I hate my washing machine. It took hours for it to finish washing all my clothes. But whatever, it was one week holiday, a few hours wasted is nothing for me at that time. So i wait patiently and happily for it to finish.

I went to join my family around 6 pm at night, i was so happy that i can finally having a holiday with my family again. And the difference now is that i have money to treat them well. Not like before i just join them because i want them to treat me. I was so happy that i finally had my own salary.

So i remember that night i was spending them a very beautiful dinner in Secret recipe. The food was nice i did not care ordering expensive food. We can ordered almost everything. To think about it, that is the best part working as a doctor. You are not rich, but pretty sure you can buy what you want.

After dinner, we went to survey likas as that was the only place open until 10.30 pm, almost every shop that sell cloth closed early in KK.

And that night, i was sleeping so comfortably and so happily. I could not describe how happy i am that day.

Friday 8th October 2010

We woke up quit early as i can remember that morning. Have our breakfast in Malindo restaurant, then we went to shopping for the whole day as i can remember. We went to Survey Putatan, then we went to survery Penampang, then we went to KingFisher and i cut my hair there, then we went to One Borneo and later we went to UMS tamu Gadang. This is when all the bad luck happen. We went there on a heavily raining evening, and we bought a grilled fish with us. At that time i was still happy and my family too. We bought that fish and bring it back to our hotel room. We bought plain rice in a restaurant and together we sat in our hotel room eating that grilled fish and to find out that the fish is not cooked well enough. Still i ate a few of it. I was so unhappy because of the uncooked fish. I then eat only a little and went to a small reunion with my friend and the most important thing is, i have a chance to meet with Pika, my long time no see girlfriend. hehe.

I am so happy that night, I met pika, met with other colleagues from Peninsular, and after the small reunion, me and pika went to Sadong jaya. the place where we used to hang out, and drink fruit juice there and ate out favourite grilled lemon chicken there. So happy. Plus, the next day is our convocation day. I feel tired but the tiredness disappear because of my excitement.

Saturday 9th October 2010

Finally it was here. My graduation day. Me and my family woke up so early to prepare for this important day of my life. I finish wearing all my hood and we drove to UMS as early as 7.00 am in the morning. When we reached there, my family was busy buying some flowers and i rush to join all my other friends. Everyone is so happy and busy preparing their hood or taking picture. I remember that my family call me and i did took a picture with them once before i join my friend and get ready to enter the hall. To think about it, that is the only picture i took for that day :-(. I am totally unaware of what is happening later.

When we enter the hall, with music, i feel so proud and happy. Finally the whole 5 years finished with a big ceremony like this. Still unaware of what will happen later. I sat beside Pika and we wait with a smile to go up the stage and take our scroll of honor. So excited.

After all the speeches but TYT and vice chancellor, finally the event started. They call all the postgraduate student first and on that time, everything start to happen.

First, i feel heartburn. I told Pika and she said that i must be hungry at that time and later i should go and eat. I keep it that way. maybe i am hungry. But i remember eating my breakfast that morning and not eating for 24 hours does not cause me hunger pain after i started working as a house officer ( as we always don't have time to eat).

Second, i feel my abdomen gurgling. Now i realize something is really wrong.

Third, I feel cold all of the sudden. I look at my hand, it was pale.

Fourth, I feel nauseated.

Fifth, I feel dizzy like i want to fall.

At that time, my name was call and a person that lead me to the stage said to me "smile please", then i smiled, only for that few seconds of walking through the stages. I don't feel like i am there anymore. I went back to my seat and told Pika that i cannot hold on anymore. I feel like dying. She keeps saying "hold on". I did. And after the event finish, i was so pale and sick. My stomach is killing me. I went immediately to the toilet. After that, i still feel like dying. I just sat on a chair that i can find near me and i almost cannot do anything. Colicky pain is so terrible. I even could not walk because of it.

I was relieved when Pika came to me at that time and with her, i walk down looking for my family. She lead me to my family and then she went back to hers. And when i met my family, the only thing that i can say is "i'm sick, lets go home". We went back leaving UMS, leaving my other colleagues happily taking picture together and laughing together. For me, i just want to go back to our room and lay down. I could not bare it anymore. When we reached our room, i just get to bed shivering and rigor. Put myself under the blanket and i don't remember what happen after that. I slept for a few hours....

When i woke up, it is already evening. I am still weak but i know that if i keep myself like that, i will ruined my holiday. I woke up, eat something, and try to be healthy as i can. I told my mother that we should go on and go somewhere for dinner. But at that time, my father and my sister was having the same symptoms that i had that morning. We all got food poisoning. And it was terrible. And it definitely caused by the grilled fish we bought the night before.

With a little bit of strength, me and my mother when to Centre point KK just a few blocks away from our room and bought a few bottle of mineral water and porridge from mcDonald to eat that night. It was so sad that we can only eat food like that ( we supposed to eat fancy dinner with my first salary everynight). That night, it was total silence. everyone was not well in my family. We sleep only. Doing nothing in our hotel. Toilet is the most frequent place we visit at that night.

Sunday 10th October 2010

We all woke up, feeling a little bit well. The diarrhea was still there but with a little strength and spirit, i try to fight it. I want a perfect sunday after my convocation.

It started well, we had our breakfast and we went to Ever Best Studio for our planned photo shoot session along with Pika and her family. It turn out well. I finally had a chance to meet Pika family and Pika too have met my family. So we all together took our convocation photo happily. And after that, Pika went to sent her brother to UMS (her brother also graduating), and me and my family went back to our hotel for a few minutes then we too went to UMS to take a few phothos there as i did not get to take it the day before because of my health problem.

We went to Sinario cafe for lunch and after that, we went to UMs and meet Pika there. Together with Pika, we all tour around UMS taking picture along the way. I will be missing UMS soon. That day i already miss UMS. The place where i used to stay for 5 years. It was like my second home. I never felt homesick when in UMS. I really felt like home there.

At 4 PM, i send my family back to out hotel room and me and pika together went to book a restaurant for our family dinner later that night. The dinner that we planned along time ago.

Well, that night, it turn out to be well, we all sat together in a big table in Nasi Padang Ibu located in Jesselton point facing the dark blue ocean night, post raining, well so lovely. We sat and ate together, both pika and my family. After dinner, we all take picture, again, in jesselton point. So happy i almost sing a song that night. I feel so comfortable. So warm even it was just raining before that. It still raining a bit after our dinner. Still i feel warm and comfort. I don't know why.

With a smile, getting back too my hotel room with my family, my cats were waiting there, i was so happy and i sleep like a baby that night. Even though sometimes my stomach ached, but i don't care. I still feel comfortabe through the night.

Monday 11th October 2010

Woke up early. Today is my mom appointment in SMC. So we wake up before 8 and went to SMC as planned. Went there, they taken my mom's blood, then we went for breakfast as the result will only available at noon along with my mom appointment with her physician. We had breakfast in Fook Yuen. One chinese restaurant that i love so much to eat. Love the dumplings. After breakfast, we went to a few more places, Pet Store, i even went to Queen elizabeth to take my Payment Slip. Then after that we went back to SMC for my mom appointment with her physician. At that time i still have my diarrhea but still controlable.

In the afternoon, we went to UMS to return my graduation coat and hood. Took my original scroll. Then we went back to our hotel room. My sister had to go our auntie house because of her business and i planned to go out with pika that night but it did not turn out well. Pika was late because of her problem with UMS administration. As usual, UMS always like that. So with a little bit of stomach ache, i accompany my parent to CP to buy some stuff like water, some snacks, and a few more other thing. Then after that around 9.30 pm i finally had a chance to meet pika.

I remember going to Pasar Malam with pika as she want to buy a luggage bag. Just after she bought that bag, my sister call me to fetch her back from my auntie house to our hotel room. I did. Then after that i hang out with pika in McDonald.... but i guess just for few minutes, before her family call asking her to get back to their hotel because her family want to fetch her brother from UMS back to their hotel. I was like...what....so sad, we finally had a chance to meet and hang out but not more that an hour. A little frustrated. But still, even though i told her not to go back so early, still it was already 11.00 pm. How long can we hang out at late hour like that. What would her family say if i send her back too late at night. Plus i am not really well that night,. Even a smile cause me a great pain..in the stomach.

So i send her back to her hotel. I am so sorry for her. I know she is sad because we don't have that much time together after 3 months seperation. But i really don't know what is the best for her that night. I guess spending time with her family would be the best for her.

I too, almost cry. But i did not.

Tuesday 12 October 2010

This is the day when Pika and her family had to return to Kuching. So sad. I woke up at 5 AM in the morning just to send Pika to airport again. After this, i don't know when will i meet her again but i am sure that i will meet her again soon. It is just time that separate us. Not distance. Because distance can be bought by money but time cannot. No one can buy time with money.

So, i believed that this was another sad that for me. The day we part again. After i send Pika to airport, i quickly rushed back to my hotel room. My family still sleeping. I am relieved that even though i part with Pika that morning but still there were my family around. Just like before. So i went to sleep...

A few hours later, i woke up. All my family member recovered from the food poisoning. At least 90% recovered. I still had my stomach ache but i feel fresh. My family was preparing breakfast ( instant noodles as usual if we feel lazy to go anywhere). Just after breakfast, we went to Kundasang, to Tagal, the place where we can swim with the fish. A few hours driving to Ranau, i feel so happy. happy because my family was happy, and happy because i remembered i used to go to Tagal with Pika before. The memory remains.

We reach Tagal at noon. There were so many people there. All are family that having their children graduated in UMS and not they were spending their extra holiday around Sabah, just like us.

For almost an hour we swim with the fish there. So happy. Just before finished, i said to my mom " can this swimming with the fish cure my stomach?".............

It did not.

We were driving back to KK, went to UMS for a while to help retrieved Pika's graduation scroll then we planned to go to Old Town White Coffee to had our dinner when my stomach start to groll and ache. I did manage to bring my family to Wisma Merdeka but then.... there...i could not bare it anymore. The pain return, and i feel so cold. Just like the day of my graduation. This time i don't want to go back to my hotel room anymore. I was sick of my sickness. I straight away asked my family to bring me to a private clinic nearby. Luckily there were private clinic nearby. I paid RM65 for the medication. The antimotility drugs, ORS, antibiotic, and also paracetamol...i was having high grade fever checked by the GP but i am not aware that i am having fever at that time.

Then we went back to our hotel room. My mom just manage to buy chicken rice for our dinner. That night, during our dinner, with my stomach ache and fever, i was so sad. I am planning to bring them to OLD Town, yet ended eating chicken rice in our hotel room. I am so sad. I hate whatever infected me that day. I cursed that virus or bacteria or whatever.

then for the rest of the night, i sleep soundly. The medication did work.

Wednesday 13th October 2010

The last day of my holiday. I woke up feeling much better than last night. My parent also woke up a little late that day. After we all woke up, my parent start preparing breakfast, instant noodle again. But this time i stopped them. Let's go to Old Town White cofee i said. And we did.

I am so happy that finally i manage to bring them there. We ate our breakfast with smile and laughter. So happy. So comforting.

Then i bring my family shopping in centre point. We bought a few things. I bought a clock. I've been thinking of buying a wall clock for my house since a long time ago.

Then we went back to our hotel room. Rest for a few hours. And at that time, i remember that me and my moms sat watching TV and we talk about everything that happen along that 7 day just like what i wrote here in thos blog post. We were rethinking that if we did not do certain things like eating that grilled fish, we might have a better holiday.... It was unpredictable. But we learn our lesson. choose our food wisely.

In the evening, my mother help me pack my stuff. Then i bring my family to eat in Grace Point. There, i ordered grilled fished, but this time i am sure that it was clean. It is expensive but clean. Rm20 per fish compare to Rm8 for a grilled fish that poisoned us.

After dinner, my family send me back to my house. They did went to clean my house a little before they went back to hotel. And after that....that's it. My holiday end.

There is a lot of thing that i regret...i regret eating that fish, i regret did not organized my time so wisely that i can meet pike more often along the holiday. I regret not holding back pika that night when we were in Mcdonald. But along the thing that i regret, i did enjoyed my holiday. It did paint a great memory for me. A bittersweet memory.

But i am hoping that someday, i will had a chance like this again. To spend holiday with my family, meet pike, hang out with her, and i am pretty sure, that day will come and i will take care of my health and not to fall sick again, in a most important day of my life.....

I miss Raya...again

2010-10-02T21:23:00.003+08:00

1. It happen last friday. I was post call. I am so tired walking out from the ICU ( the place where my own call was), and to my surprise that there is a lost of stall and decoration along the corridor to my ward where i supposed to work that day. It was Sambutan Hari Raya for our hospital.

2. I was so happy looking at everyone there wearing traditional baju melayu and baju kurung, cookies everywhere, there is the smell of curry and Peanut sauce, rendang..and the best thing is, there is music playing Hari raya song. I feel like Raya again.

3. I quickly went into my ward and review my patient quickly as i was informed that the celebration will begin at 10 am. Our ward round start at 9. It was slow..damn slow. I want to go to that ceremony at 10. Well,, we did get lucky. At 9.30, our specialist told us to do whatever we want first as she was teaching the MO about master exam short case. I was running with few other colleague to the corridor where the ceremony should be. A lot of people there. I was so excited. We went to Satay stall and ask for a few satay and i also went to take some Ketupat and peanut sauce. It was at that time all the stall start to close their food and say that we should first enter the hall for the officiating ceremony but then we don't have time for that.

4. It does not matter. We went to our ward first. Planning to go to that ceremony later to eat only. And that was it. Work start coming. All i know i was sitting there holding a very thick patient's case note and try to take as much history from her when my watch showing 12 pm already. After i finish my clerking, i quickly pass over my job to another people with the reason that i want to go to friday prayer and... that is it. When i get to the corridor, everybody was cleaning their stall. Food finished. Ceremony finished. I was there, the last person i guess trying to look for food. Outside i am cool,,inside i was piss off. I really excited about that ceremony but i missed it.

5. With a blunt face, i went to on call room trying to get a shower for myself as i did not bath since morning ( i was on call the nght before). I only slept for 1 hour that night, i was tired, i haven't eat anything accept 3 pieces of satay and a few pieces of ketupat. I went to on call room, one of my colleague was there, she was having a nap or rest i thnk, i went ang get my shower, drop my self on to the bed beside her, then talk and sleep until i woke up at 1.30 pm..and i missed my friday prayer.

It was like, i missed everything on friday. I don't know why. Life is so tiring today.

On Call Review

2010-09-19T18:15:00.001+08:00

Who like on call on saturday? No one. It was too long. On call on
weekend or public holiday means you will be working at 8.00 am till
8.00 am without the primary team supporting you.
My on call last night was... err...tiring. But luckily my on call team
was so damn cool. There are 3 of us keeping the Patient admission
centre tight and steady. Our MO on call also super cool. So last night
on call was cool. Haha.

But you know, work never stop during on call. I feel like i am giving
up in the middle of my on call day but i try to hold on and i made it.
So relieved.

I wonder why people choose to go to hospital at 2-3 am in the morning
while you can actually wait until 7 or 8 am. Most patient who come
will be admitted to ward and will be kept for observation for maybe
1-2 days meaning that they can come later mah. haha... i was very
tired clerking patient non stop for 24 hours.

Yesterday, i never took my lunch, and never took my dinner. I was very
hungry until at some point i feel like collapsing. Luckily again,
McDonald was like a savior to us. At 3 am in the morning, i finally
ate my lunch and dinner....

hmm...i was planning a lot of thing for my post call off day. But you
know, in the end i end up sleeping until 5.00 pm and i did not do
anything for the whole sunday. What a waste of time but good to
conserve my energy for tomorrow.

A day will start again tomorrow, i hope everything will be ok.
Everyone deserves their just deserts.

ascap23

Like a Diary

2010-09-10T12:07:00.002+08:00

Oh well. my blog post seem to become like a diary nowadays. I hate it. But i dun have anything else to talk about so that is why my post was all rubbish talking about how hard my life is nowadays. Well, it seem that i can cope with it for a little now so i did enjoy my work now.

Especially today because it's raya day. Haha. Holiday for me. For the first time i did not went back to my hometown during raya. Not because i don't have holiday but i am too tired to go back as it will take me half day of traveling time to go back. If my salary already out i will go back with flight but fyi, i haven't received a single cent from the goverment after working very hard for them for almost 2 months now.

So today is Hari Raya and i am eating mc donald for breakfast. What a life.

Hmm.... so boring alone in my house.

oh, so boring.

The job will never finish isn't it

2010-09-05T13:56:00.003+08:00

Finally i get a sunday off this week after 2 consecutive sunday which i spend 36 hours on call. It was so nice. I woke up at 11 and i don't have anything to do. It is kind of boring but still it is the thing that i've missed so much, the boringness.

Working as a house officer, even though i am new, is so exhilarating. As my colleague Shantene mention to me yesterday when i pass a case to her. "the job will never finish isn't it" she said to me. I am supposed to do my work from 6.30 am until 5pm during holiday including public holiday but yesterday until 5 pm the work did not finish. Just as i thought it is, the nurse keep coming to me and bring me another problem with another patient. Sometimes, i just want to say "Please, be healthy, don't get another problem on top of your current problem".

Blood pressure is my number one enemy. You know why? Because in ONG, if someone came with normal pregnancy you wait, when someone came with fever, you treat, but if someone came with high blood pressure, pretty much you can't do not so many things. Even though you give double or the utmost powerful antihypertensive drugs, the BP can shoot up anytime it want. Just as the patient is sitting and having their lunch or sleeping, the nurse will check their BP and it can goes up to 170/100 mmhg. And eventhough the patient is comfortable, high BP still need to be treated. If not, they will pretty much fitted and that is a medico legal issue.

I was so busy yesterday until i have to do this kind of continues vaginal examination from one patient to another ( i clerk every patient that need to be examine and examine them one shot). Plus, working in hoilday, there will be only four of you watching over 15-20 patient per person. Plus, other colleagues seem to not want to involve in your problem to make it their problem, you have to survive on your own. But not to blame them, it is normal even for me. If i already finish my damn busy job, i won't simply go to my colleagues and said "can i help?' because this will give you another episode of damn busy work. But sometimes, you really need help.

luckily one of my senior colleague did offer his help to me yesterday but pretty much i've finish everything at that time. Just when i was packing my stuff AT 6PM!! ( i did mention that i have to work until 5pm on holiday), a nurse came to me and said " Doctor, one patient CTG (cardiotocograph) not so good". When i immediately attend that patient, SHIT!, it was really really not good. Just a few minutes ago that mother is comfortably talking and smiling to me, now having a fever with tachycardia and the baby inside her having the same thing, bloody shit tachycardia. I am shouting inside of me "i want to go back please!!" but i can't just leave my patient like that when i am the only one around at that time.

So i start to give her hydration, put in left lateral position, take temperature and the most important thing, call my boss to come and see. Luckily my boss that day was a good and lovely doctor, not the fierce type. I did get scold a little because i forgot to took high vaginal swab for her. When my boss came, she just take the HVS, order to give paracetamol to the patient stat, and then she herself has to go and call her boss for management of this patient. That's mean it is a high risk case already.

Luckily my bosss' boss (the specialist) just ask to sent that patient immediately to the labor room for augmentation of labour so that the baby did not get distress for a very long time. If C-section was ordered, it would be another hell of a job to prepare blood, call the GA, call the surgeon and everything i have to handle alone. If sent to labour room as in my case, i just need to call labour room, then ask the nurse to sent the patient to labour room.

But then i have to take septic work up for that patient, blood c&s, BSMP, Urine C&S, Urine FEME, FBC, and you know how many form i have to filled? a lot!

When that patient send to the labour room, i was grabbing my bag to go back when a nurse came to me and said, " doctor, i think that baby cord is infected". DAMN! not at this time. I went to check the baby cord, and there it is sloughing and pus coming out. it's already late, i haven't berbuka puasa, what to do. And at that time i saw shantene, she is the one on call and the person on call was the one who supposed to take over everything after 5pm. I immediately pass the case to her and she said

"the job will never finish isn't it" .... " you can go zaki, you've been busy for the whole day"

Thank you shantene

Too Phat VS Eminem

2010-09-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

Well, i have to make this post, to express myself to the turnover of the music industry. If anyone still remember that there is once when Hip Hop is the main music stream in this world. I remember at that time, if you look to the the west you will hear Eminem spitting his powerful lyrics. When you look to our local music scene, Too Phat was there catching every youth interest in this country.

10 years after, today, both Eminem and Too phat still vibrating in music industry. Listening to both, i start to realize that i am listening to two biggest name in Hip Hop. Eminem as the king of hip hop currently, and not to forget Too Phat has establish their empire here in Asian music culture, and i can say that it is not overreacted if i call Too Phat the King of hip hop in south east asia.

The thing is, i realize that Malique ( too phat recently broke into Malique and Joe flizzow going to their seperate way of music but still maintaing the status of Too Phat), has created a quite different tune of hip hop. The rhyme is not like other rappers who spit rhyme loosely on what they do everyday but malique more on to philosophical aspect of rhyming, and i like it.

Listening to Malique 's song, compare it to Eminem, i believe eminem is going down and Malique is getting better and better.

I guess, it is true that Eminem lack of new thing to say as mentioned by some of the critics, but i can say that Malique, critics can't deny his credibility in rhyming words that make us think and say "that is true".

But don't forget Eminem's Love the way you lie feat Rihanna, this is one good song and lyrics that eminem should maintained to keep people listening to him.

Currently i am listening to Malique new song called Senyum, and masih hip hop feat Joe Flizzow.

Daily Schedule

2010-09-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

When i think about it, i have this very small and limited daily schedule. Even narrower than before when i was in my holiday.

1. I woke up at 0530 and drive to Hospital at 0600. Arrive at hospital at 0620. Start my morning review at 6.30. Finish it at 8.00.

2. at 8.00 i will went to morning prayer (morning assembly). At 9.00 the round will start. It will last until 11.30 to 12.30. Then we will do discharges up until 1400. Then immediately we start doing our PM review and at 1500, the round will start again.

3. Round will finish at 1700. Then we will do discharges again up until 1830. Then i will go break my fast. At 1900, i will start doing night review, At 2000, hopefully my review done. I will go back.

4. Tapau some food and usually i reached my home at 2100/ Take my shower, then... around 2130..i will go t sleep and everything start again and again, 24/7.

zzzzzz

Better

2010-08-25T21:22:00.003+08:00

1. Things going a little bit better after you off tagging and start on call. I've been on call 4 times and 2 more on call for this month. On call is the worse thing for a house officer i guess. Everyone does not want to go on call. For RM100 per night, you have to endure the suffering of doing work alone at night, make your decision and stay awake for 36 hours.

It is not worth it.

2. Now that i already on call, i learn a little on how the system work.

3. Sometimes we manage our patient not by brain but by spinal cord. Sometimes when i was awake for 36 hours after on call, my hand is writing my PM review but my brain is sleeping. The next day when i go and see my yesterday PM review, i am wondering...did i wrote this yesterday..?

I am...

2010-07-28T12:48:00.001+08:00

I did not update my facebook page since weeks ago. Almost everyone wondering where i am now. I am sorry as don't hae time to do anything right now except working everyday.

To tell everyone out there, i am posted in ONG in Hospital Wanita Dan Kanak-kanak likas. Life never been busier as this. Everyday i woke up at 5.20, take a shower and prepare everything before driving to Hospital and i need to reach the hospital before 6.30 am. After that, life is work and work and work only.

For the first time in my life that i did skip breakfast, lunch and dinner, and for the first time in my life that i have to eat my breakfast, lunch and dinner at 12 midnight.

I can only leave the hospital after a non stop working at 11 PM/ After that, i will buy something to eat and then get home at around 11.30 PM-12 AM and eat my dinner or just go to sleep.

Even last night i eat only half of my dinner because i am too tired to eat.

Life as a house officer is tough like everyone said before. I don't have a choice, i need to move on and keep up with everything. I hope later i will achieve some sort of enjoyment or entertaiment in my life. To tell everyone the truth, we work 7 days in a week. maybe after i off tag then life become easier or maybe not. I don't know.

I miss my past. My life in medical school where i have a lot of time for myself, where i have my girlfriend waiting for me to go for our dinner after a 'busy' day at 7.00 PM. Time when i can woke up at 10 AM and went to watch movie with her in the afternoon.

I miss the time where i can sleep until 9 am and woke up with the smell of breakfast cooked by my mother. Ate the breakfast and then nothing else to do, so i went to disturb my cats. Play with them and waiting for 4.00 pm so that i can bring them to play outside the house. Then wait for dinner to be served. Then i can go sleep anytime i want.

Now life is changing, at 12 midnight, i sit on my bed rethinking my past. The same thing at 5.20 in the moring, i sit on my bed rethinking about my past.

Well, what can i do...

(now i am in Pathological Course organized by the hospital, so for the first time within this 2 weeks that i can sit and listen to lecture only. It was like a rest day for me, ironically, listening to lecture is consider busy when i was a medical student.Now it is not. ).

Start working....

2010-07-10T15:31:00.004+08:00

1. This picture is taken after my induction program has ended. So happy yet so nervous to whatever will happen after this. End of my induction means i can start working as a provisional doctor officially.

2. Hmm...induction course was nice... you know, i think if i did not go for induction course i will not be ready to work in goverment sector. I acquired a lot of new information regarding my work eg: regarding salary, allowance, my role, leave, and how to proceed for further study to become specialist.

3. Biro Tata Negara course is completely different from induction. Hm...don't want to talk about it but seriously, i dun like it much. I love my country and i love to learn history of my country, but you know...sometimes..history can be subjective. That should not happen. However, what to say.

4. Did i enjoy my 5 days course in Klang for Induction and BTN? Well, as a whole, no. But if i think about it again, it was fun though. You know, living in a business class hotel, fine dining, full blast aircond 24 hours, my girlfriend with me, my friend with me, get to know some of UPM student (mostly i just remember my group mate during Induction course which i found they are crazy fun yet easy to work with, and some of them will be my colleague later in Queen Elizabeth Hospital.

5. Other than that, well, that part of the town as i mention in the previous post , is totally different from the way i raised in this world. Haha. And, there is nothing in this part of Town. There is only a big Royal Museum in front of my hotel, and within 20 minutes walking distance, there is a shopping mall which smell like cigarette and a few small shops. So boring. Wish that i could to KL before going back to Labuan but what to do, no time for me. Other than that town, i went to my uncle house in Bandar SpringHill Port Dickson, i went to see Port Dickson town which i found okay and small.

6. This morning at 5 am, my uncle drove me to LCCT airport, and with long queue and limited time, i suddenly found myself waiting my luggage in Labuan Airport. End of my induction journey yet there are more to come. i have half day to pack (which i did not start yet) and then i will be on my way to Kota Kinabalu tomorrow morning and report for duty the day after tomorrow. Huh. I feel like sleeping.

We are Unique

2010-07-07T13:46:00.002+08:00

Klang - I am in my induction course right now. It was kind of boring because i was stuck here in Puteri Garden Hotel, Klang. I never been to Klang before. In fact, i seldom went to peninsular Malaysia.

2. Yesterday, because of so boring staying in the hotel ( the whole day we listen to talk by various people regarding our role in goverment and everything else), and we have a few hours of rest before dinner served, so me and my roomate (yes, my roomate in UMS happen to be my roomate here also) talk a walk around the hotel.

3. To my surprise, when we were walking around, i feel so unique because everyone else around me are indians. Indian silk shop, indian restaurant, indian textile shop, and even the pedestrian, and most of the people driving in the street are indian.

4. I never had an encounter like this before. In place where i came from, there are no such places which is specific to one race only. Everywhere is kind of mixed.

5. It was a new experience for me. I was fascinate by this experience. Strange. Everything that is not use to our eyes, seems to interest us the most.

6. Well, now again, i am stuck here in this hotel. I am planning to go further out of this hotel street, to see more thing here in this part of Klang.

House officer

2010-07-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

UPDATE- HOTEL PUTERI GARDEN, KLANG. Finally i received my posting letter. I'm posted to Hospital Queen Elizabeth. Ready to report for duty next week.

3 days to Induksi 2010

2010-07-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

1. So dizzy thinking on how my life really mess up now. Things are so complicated.

2. Here is what i anticipate to happen in front of me within this few weeks.... first i go to induction, then came back to Labuan at 10th of July, then ready to go to wherever they posted me and start working at 12th of july. Without any preparation.... i have to start working. I don't even know where will i be posted yet until today.

3. What about house? Where should i stay? My car? How to bring my car there? Where is there?

4. Im so confueed.

3 days to Induksi 2010

2010-07-02T14:56:00.002+08:00

1. Well, after around 2 months staying at home..hmmm..yeah exactly 2 months for me, now i've been called to induction course in Klang.

2. Everything planned.

3. Feel kind of lazy to go start back doing some activity that people told you to do so. For this 2 moths, my activity is doing whatever i wanted to do without anyone else telling. Boss for myself for 2 months.

4. As usual, feel nervous for it. Mostly not nervous for the induction course but the life after it. The life when i will start working as a house officer. For 5 years, i've been told that HO life is the worse life an occupation can offer. None other job worse like this 2 years period of time.

5. I doubt that (have to). Maybe i will feel enjoy or whatever. Maybe i will perceived it differently. Like when i start my medical study, everyone said that medical study have no life or whatever, yes, that is true, but still i enjoy it. Now i even miss that 5 years of medical study in UMS. so fun.

6. Praying to god to make everything better later. I just want to help people and search for more money. huhu.

Labuan Med Check --> induction

2010-06-30T16:16:00.002+08:00

LABUAN- Just yesterday i went to Klinik Kesihatan Labuan and was disappointed by them regarding my medical check up form. I received letter from SPA a day before that and there is medical check up form inside. So as other people would normally did, i went to Klinik Kesihatan to do that medical check up.

When i went to Klinik Kesihatan Labuan, i have to take number and wait for my turn. After that, my number was called and i went to the counter and tell them my intention to get a medical check up for SPA. They said " you cannot do this med check up not until you receive letter that tell you where you will be working later. If we do this check up, we need about 2-3 weeks to process and if you are posted to other state then it will be difficult. You can do it in the state where you are posted later."

I was like...confused. Then what should i do? They asked me to meet their superior and the same thing was said by their superior.

I asked him " What if i was called to report my self next week or the week after and my medical check up form was not completed yet?"

Then they replied " Never mind, you can do it later after u report urself. Does not matter. They will understand."

I was like...stunned. So i do not need to complete this? But my other friend, some of them, already completed their form and be ready for everything.

After a few hours of waiting and thinking, i then choose an optional method. Doing it in private sector.

When i first step into the private clinic asking about my medical check up, i asked " I want to do medical check up, how long will it take to complete it?"

They replied, " oh, will finish today also, take around 30 minutes for x-ray, urine drugs, and everything else."

Haha. So i did my medical check up in private clinic. easy, with money.

Today, another thing happen when i woke up from my dream in the morning. There are 5 sms in my inbox from my gf pika, my ex roomate nadrin, and my sifu sylves telling me that induction letter was out. I thought it will take 1 week for us to prepare but what the heck, we have to go next monday. 4 days from now and i haven't received my letter. What the heck.

My life start a little chaotic today. I hate it.

On the Verge of becoming a doctor

2010-06-28T13:08:00.001+08:00

1. I am waiting for my letter from SPA to appoint me as a doctor and also letter from MMC to give me the license of becoming a doctor. Both not arrive yet. I don't know what to say.

Labuan Fever

2010-06-23T13:30:00.002+08:00

1. Labuan is a very hot island. Everyone that has been to labuan know about this. If you never been to labuan, you can try once. If you hate dark skin, labuan is not a place for you.

2. In other places (most of them), when you are not exposed directly to the sunlight, you will not get a darker skin but here in Labuan, even you stay at home or under the shed, you will still become darker. Just with the indirect sunlight, you will feel how hot this island is. If you exposed yourself directly under the sunlight, you will get sun burn. Surely.

3. Inside my house now, the temperature is 36 degree celcius. It is almost equal to your core body temperature. I doubt the temperature outside the house under the sunlight is lower than this.

4. Why is it so hot nowadays? Is Global Warming real? Can we do something about it?

5. The only way to avoid this hot condition is to use air-cond. The environmental friendly aircond of course. That is why almost every household in labuan have at least one aircond in their home. For those who does not have one, they need to endure the hot climate here. Most of Labuanite also build their home from stone and brick rather than wood because during day time, house made of rock is much cooler than wood but during night time, it is vice versa.

6. Oh, i miss the time when Labuan is much cooler than now. The time when i can walk under the sunlight to school or play foot ball or do recreational activity at 4 PM. Now you can't go out at 4PM, you need to wait until 5PM ( the time when the temperature start to cool down). And oh i miss my blanket. Long time ago, every night i will sleep under my blanket but now, bye bye blanket, i do not need you anymore.

Another problem came with the hot temperature....mosquito. A lot of dengue cases reported here in Labuan today.

Paha Paha

2010-06-22T21:03:00.004+08:00

1. This is a type of leave that grow from a bunch of tree called Paha Paha around my house. Obviously for me and most Brunei tribe of people in Labuan ( or can i say all labuanite) know about this leaves. It was classified as vegetables by most people who knew about it. Still, it does not look like one and the tree look like hibiscus tree and can grow up to 4 metres tall. Only the young leaves is edible.

2. It does look like a normal type of leaves but beware, it was a delicacy. Its taste superior to other vegetables you ever eat. It is sweet and have this king of natural MSG inside it. Just boil it with anything or stir fry it with nothing else, you will taste the most delicious vegetable ever in your life.

3. It was not so rare and it grow almost anywhere. But as it seem that people never realize that this leaves is edible that is why not many people have the chance to taste this leave. Once there was a restaurant in Labuan who specially bring this leaves into their menu. But, i guess now as this leaves rarely sold in the market ( lot of vegetables in Labuan imported from Sabah and Labuanite themselves too lazy to get inside the forest near their house to look for this tree). Now, if you want to taste this leaves, you need to be friend with a labuanite whom their mother know about this leave and know how to cook it.

4. Fortunately, there are plenty of this tree growing around my house so that every evening we would go and pick it for dinner. It was so delicious i told you. Sweet and crunchy at the same time. Some people confused this leaves with 'cangkuk manis' or 'pucuk kayu manis'. It is totally different. The tree is not edible itselg like kayu manis or cinnamon, and if you eat the old leaves from this Peha Peha tree, it taste bitter and horrible. The young one, sweet as candy.

5. I am thinking that not many young generations knew about this leave. I am fortunate to be the one who know it. So i make this post to make sure that somehow, people will know about it and maybe know the scientific name for it so we can search it in the internet further to know the details and properties of this leaves.

6. For now, i did not know the scientific name for it. I will stick to its traditional brunei name - Peha Peha @ paha-paha. Peha means thigh. I do not know why they called it 'thigh', my assumption is that a women is trying to reach for the 'pucuk' or the young leaves on the top of the tree and maybe because it is too high, so exposing her thigh or whatsoever so people start calling it Peha-Peha. haha. Not a very good legend story made by me.

CSL Phone ?

2010-06-18T15:13:00.002+08:00

1. Not many know about this brand called CSL. It is claimed to be the first Malaysian brand Handphone. However, i learned that the part for this mobile phone was imported from China. They assemble it in Malaysia though. So not so strong enough to claim this as a Malaysian Phone. It should be called hybrid or something.

2. So when i bought my phone almost 2 years ago, this brand was all new. So no one had a good review on it. I was taking a risk to buy it. The reason is because this phone is cheap and look exactly like those branded phone. It was like a clone phone from other brand such as nokia.

3. So, after 2 years, if someone ask me whether it is good or not? I would say don't buy it for the moment. This phone main problem is the software it is not that user friendly type. But that does not matter for a guy that can think a little complicated than user-friendly.

4. The main drawback is the battery life. The battery will only last for a few hours after maybe 2-3 months. So this is why many people who bought this phone become angry and abandon it for the other major brand phone.

5. However..haha... my phone is kind of different. Since the day i use it until now, there are no problem occuring. The keypad work fine like Nokia (no lag), the battery last for at least 3 days before i need to recharge it. And i also got 2 battery when i bought my phone.

6. Another problem is the charge itself. CSL only provide USB charger for all of its phone, as far as i know, so as you all know, USB port is not suitable for frequent insert and eject type of port. It became loose faster than you can ever imagine. So when your phone USB port is already loose so the charger would not work properly. However, hehe, my phone has an extra port ( a charging port) for nokia type of charger adapter. So i can use nokia charger to charge my csl phone. How handy is that.

haha. so in the end, i am kind of satisfy with my csl phone DS300. It was smart, thin, light, work like nokia, look like nokia. The only thing i hate about it the software. So after this, i am sure that i want to buy a HTC, iphone, or any other brand of pda phone. But that will have to wait until i get a job and salary.

Roti canai

2010-06-17T20:32:00.004+08:00

1. What is the most common breakfast in Malaysia? None other than Roti Canai with a glass of sweet Teh Tarik.

2. It does not matter which state you came from, when ask about it, everyone seem to be familiar with it. Another interesting fact about it is that everyone seem to have this roti canai outside. Rarely you heard that someone is enjoying homemade roti canai or eat roti canai at home. Everyone must eat it outside.

3. I am not sure but they said that this delicacies originated from India, brought by Indian immigrant to Malaysia but it seem that we cannot find this food in India. It can be only enjoyed here in Malaysia and Singapore i think and Brunei also. Thus, this is Malaysian food. Now it made not only by indian but also malay, chinese and of you are in Sabah, it was made by 30+ different tribe here in malaysia and even non-malaysian in Sabah (illegal immigrant) can made this simple and delicious breakfast.

4. This roti canai is similar to roti paratha i think because if you found frozen paratha in supermarket and then you heat it at home, it taste the same. But don't bother going out from your house in the morning to buy this roti canai, it was worth.

5. Actually, i post this Roti canai picture in this post not because of its history or its taste, but the picture i posted hear is taken exactly on the day when they announce our professional exam. The biggest exam so far in my life. I remember going to BTC cafe just beside the hospital to eat breakfast with my girlfriend just after a brief talk by our external examiner from Singapore.

6. To tell you the truth, it was the worse taste of Roti canai (even though it was actually really really nice crispy and the curry is perfect with chutney on the top of my roti make me want to have second) because i really nervous, afraid and feel like i want to die at that time. I have palpitation since the morning i woke up from my non-dreamy sleep. I was afraid. Really afraid.

However, in the end, everything goes well. I passed my exam. I am qualify to become a house officer but still not working now because of some problem with my registration (and all my other friends too).

In the end, i miss that morning eating with my pika. We don't have a lot of chances to eat breakfast together in Hospital because we usually posted in different hospital during my 5th year of study.

1Goal

2010-06-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

Today, 72 million children in the world are denied the chance to go to school. These children could be our next generation’s leaders, sports stars, doctors and teachers. But they face a lifelong struggle against poverty.

It doesn’t have to be this way. Since 2000, 40 million more children are in school. Education beats poverty – and gives people the tools to help themselves.

1GOAL is a campaign seizing the power of football to ensure that education for all is a lasting impact of the 2010 FIFA World Cup. Raising our voices all over the world we believe that, together, we can make education a reality for the millions of boys and girls who remain out of school.

“This is our chance to show not just out-of-school children, but our own children, that when we make a promise, we keep it. With your help, we could have billions of fans cheering not just for their teams, but for one team: 1GOAL. This is our moment to shine; we can bring millions of children in from the shadows of ignorance, and light up their lives with the legacy of education.” ~ Her Majesty Queen Rania Al-Abdullah Co-Founder and Global Co-Chair, 1GOAL

You can help make education for all a reality.

1GOAL is bringing together footballers, fans, charities, corporations and individuals to lobby and achieve our ambitious aim of education for everyone. By joining the 1GOAL team, you can strengthen the campaign’s voice and give us the best possible chance of success.

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Eminem's Recovery : Album Review

2010-06-15T13:09:00.002+08:00

1. Slim shady is back. After a year of waiting, i finally has a chance to listen to his sequel of the previous Relapse album that was released on 2009. Some people say that this is the most anticipated hip hop album of the year. After a year of announcement on its released, finally the album is here.

2. When i hear his previous Relapse album, i was a little disappointed since the flow and Eminem's style totally change and sound a little rubbish and boring, so i hope Recovery won't follow the step of Relapse.

3. Luckily, it does not. This new album reveal a brand new style of Eminem fused with his old angry lyrical style, honest, but he is much better controlled than last year. No more song for dissing a lot of pop celebrity or many call it as " Please stand up song". All the song in this album is much more honest than before.

What is good about this album?

4. The good thing about the album is, the lyrics is much stronger than before, and the way Em deliver it is much more clearer than what he did in last Relapse album. The music is different as eminem try to fuse a lot of ballad kind of sound in his lyric and a lot of new thing to be heard inside this album. from track 1 till the end, every song is reasonably listenable. Of course some of the song is just lyric and nothing special, but there is a lot of thing that worth to hear inside the album.

The strongest song?

5. Everyone heard Eminem new single called 'Not Afraid'.. the song is different yet still show Eminem way of rapping. he lyric is strong enough. However, i found that his song entitled " love the way you lie" featuring Rihanna is equally strong as Not Afraid. I believe this song is written no.1 all over it. Other song such as Space Bound, No love featuring Lil wayne, Won't back down feat Pink, 25 to life, Going through changes feat Ozzy Osbourne and So bad, is unique hip hop song.

The not good song?

6. I can say every song is reasonably listenable but, yes, there is some song that i think should not be there in this album. This is especially for the song entitled 'You're Never over' which is dedicated to his late friend Proof. This song is, maybe, be putted inside this album because it was a dedication to proof, but it was totally rubbish song.

A song called Cinderella man is quite unique, however, it is sucks. It sound ugly. Maybe too new to be good.

So that's it about this album. Only a brief. You should and buy it on your own. And for your information, the album will be released next week. So please be patient. I am definitely go and buy this album.

Here is the song list from this album:

1 Cold Wind Blows
2 Talkin’ 2 Myself feat. Kobe
3 On Fire
4 Won’t Back Down feat. P!NK
5 W.T.P.
6 Going Through Changes
7 Not Afraid
8 Seduction
9 No Love feat. Lil Wayne
10 Space Bound
11 Cinderella Man
12 25 to Life
13 So Bad
14 Almost Famous
15 Love the Way You Lie feat. Rihanna
16 You’re Never Over

Swarm of Bee in World Cup

2010-06-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

1. I've been wondering since the 2010 World Cup started a few days ago, what is that buzzing sound? It sound like a swarm of bee that live under our home sink in the kitchen.

2. My mother always complaining about the sound and told us to lower down the volume so that the buzzing sound cannot be heard, but of course, we can't hear anything in the TV if we lower down the volume so that the buzzing sound disappear.

3. . So i had enough of wondering today so i look in the internet and i found out that the buzzing sound was produce by an instrument called Vuvuzela.

4. Oh, ouch, i thought that sound is produce by a swarm of bee. My father (on the first day of World Cup 2010) said that the sound was intentionally created as a theme for this year world cup. I guess it is not since lot of people are protesting about the sound, most of them who are in South Africa right now.

5. Imagine you are in that stadium with that loud buzzing sound...oh you will become deaf in a month.

6. Vuvuzela, vuvuzela. watching football is now different because of you.

A Vuvuzela. Picture taken from Wikipedia.org

Stop HIV

2010-06-09T16:37:00.006+08:00

And the number is increasing every year. 87000 in 27 years. IF we did not open our mind to stop this, there will be much more HIV infection later in the future. \

I believe that the number will be higher. There will be more than 128 000, if we did not do anything about it. Thus we determine the future. We determine the figure.

Every life is precious to us and we don't want any more people die because of this disease. It is a preventable disease. It can be stopped.
There could be people with HIV all around you, you should protect yourselves, you should increase awareness of the people around you, live a healthy life, can tested.

Young people is affected more thus education is the most single important thing to prevent the spread of the disease.

Aids did not kill own its own, it's weaken our immune system or body defense system against other infection making you cannot fight any infection own your own. Even a non life threatening infection can be deadly in AIDS patient.

The one who suffer the most is the children. Imagine you are born with the virus, you did not do anything wrong but you still suffer the rest of your life.
10 people everyday infected by HIV in Malaysia.

Yeah, it is cool to protect yourself. But if you have AIDS, it would be a different thing. You have to take medication everyday, a small infection can kill you, and your quality of life will reduce. Prevention is better than cure.

This is a single message that most people don't want to accept. They would always say that their culture and religion and tradition is enough to prevent this disease. I remember my professor once said that 'It is all rubbish! No matter what religion are you, what belief you hold within you, you could not prevent HIV with it. The only single method that is proved to prevent it is condoms. And if you think abstinence is your choice, it would not be wrong to bring a condom with you because it is not a crime". Our professor always said that everyone should not look at this issues as a taboo. If we still think it as a taboo, look at the statistic. 87000 people with HIV, 13000 people die? Do our religion and belief halt so that the number increase?

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Twilight ; Real good, good, or not good at all?

2010-06-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

1. I've watched Twilight. Both of 'em. I did not read the book though, but i guess it is an ok story.

2. From my perspective, the story of twilight is like a love version of underworld. A story about vampire..well, i don't like vampire that much. And...nothing more than that. It is a typical love story franchise, and i can say it is the biggest love story franchise there is in the world today.

3. However, from my own research which include not a significant number of candidate but still, i believe most of other additional candidate will answer the same thing..... that twilight strongest value is the male character, the sexiness of the male inside the movie.

4. Twilight is really clever, who ever make twilight should be call a clever person since as we know, if you can attract girls in the world, you will conquer the world and you can neglect the insignificant number of boys, men, and old people no matter what gender they are.

5. If i myself want to go watch that movie's sequel, i would not after i watched the first movie but i went to watch it because of my girl of course. One point to the matter, girls can control boys. And boys does not care if girls control them.

6. But, that movie is not that heavenly good i guess. Sometime i find it lame when they slow motion every male character posing with their cute face or six pack abdomen show off. But as i mention earlier, the movie is not for me, it is for girls. So fair enough, it deserves it. As much as Transformer deserves boys audiences because of Megan Fox. hah.

Anggak...gecko

2010-06-06T14:45:00.006+08:00

. Something funny happen today. A few people in my village are searching for some lizard called anggak ( in my brunei language). They say that this lizard cost up to Rm30 000 in the market. What funny about this is that this lizard used to live in our house a few years ago, not one, but many of them live.

2. It was maybe more than 10 years ago. During that time, tormal house lizard was eaten by this big lizard. It was scary. I used to be scared by this kind of lizard and if i saw it ( i was a child at that time), i will run away and shout..."ahh...anggak...." then start to call my dad to throw it away.

3. After a quite some time, those lizard start to disappear from our house. Some of them were eaten by our cats. We used to throw them away because it was not nice when you sit in your living room, and one of the big lizard start to crawl on your ceiling. Not nice to see. Thus, today, i never see them again. I wonder why. And i almost forgot their name...anggak.

4. Now people searching for it again because of its unusual high price. I wonder if it still live in our house, we will be instantly rich. hahha.

5. Maybe a lot of people did not know what is anggak. So i don't have my own picture collection of this kind of lizard so i search up in the internet and i found some picture of it taken by those people who are selling this lizard.

6. I wonder if we need to protect this kind of lizard...obviously i am concern about it since i never see it anymore around my house. They could be endangered species or something like that. I don't know. As far as i know, people looking for it not to keep it as a pet but to eat them. They said it contain healing property which i found doubtful. They are lizard. Just lizard for me.

Okay here is some picture of it that i found in the internet

Hehe..scary huh if this big lizard crawling in your wall and ceiling at night. And it produce a sound that sound like this .." angkk..angkk.." i don't know. huhuhu. This picture look like a normal lizard, but it was bigger than this. and it have variety of colour too.

World to Israel assumption

2010-06-06T10:25:00.003+08:00

1. A lot of assumption had been made since the flotilla incident about a few days ago. People start protesting everywhere around the world towards Israel. Well, it was a relieve to see that there are still human around the world after a very long period, we only see America and Israel species raging their voices.

2. What i like about this kind of protester is, they did not make assumption like those who are pro israel do. The protest were backed up by the fact that a human crime was done by the side they are protesting. In the other hand, those pro Israel side always make an assumption.

3. The assumption is about the flotilla is a propaganda to bring weapon to Hammas in Gaza. The assumption is about the Turkey President trying to win popularity and seed hatred into muslim and nourishing muslim radicalist in Turkey. The assumption is about the supply to be made into weapon in gaza. The assumption is the activist is terrorist not a humanitarian. The assumption is the flotilla intention is to provoke Israel. The assumption is those people who want to save life of other people are actually threating to kill Israelite. The assumption is the commando carrying weapon and live bullet is defending themselves from a live threatening attack from unarmed civilian. The assumption is the world is wrong and israel who are bathing with blood of the people they've killed is right.

4. It is a holocaust syndrome obviously. Whatever wrong deeds they have done, they always right because they were the one who suffer during holocaust. Well, let us see in the future later if people awaken already, realize that Israel is much more cruel that hitler.

5. I hate assumption. They don't have the fact but they act like they know.

6. I feel like i want to shout at their ear saying " Look at this, read, learn, and open your mind!"

5 years blogging

2010-06-02T16:14:00.003+08:00

1. It has been 5 years + since i start writing a blog. 10th of February 2006 is my first time writing in a blog and now almost 5 years, i still do.

2. No reason for me to keep my blog alive because i am not chasing for publicity, money, fame, or anything else. I just keep it because of my passion on writing and sharing something with everyone. Although, i will not share more than what i should, and most of my entry is not about my personal life but more on to my personal opinion.

3. I want to make this blog simple, for everyone to look at it, and read it if they want and just that. In my opinion, a rubbish talk i put in my blog could be informative for anyone else. So why not. I myself always searching for a blog for any new update and something that cannot be provided by the any web site. For example, if you want to know about the best place to eat or visit, stop googling into the tourism web site and etc (you can, and you should), but try searching in blogsearch or any blog search engine because here you can read the real opinion. Do you realize when you search for a place to stay in KK, a hotel maybe, every web site gave you those expensive and luxurious place to stay and where you get there, you are kind of disappointed for the poor space and services. If you search into blogs, you will find a place to stay that is cheap, comfortable, and have easy access to everywhere around the city.

4. So, the power of blog as mention by our former prime minister Tun Dr.Mahathir, could not be underestimated. Everyone in public will start to turn their face to the blog site if they find something curious about something in the mass media. So if the tv start saying that wind blow from the west, 1 blogger say it blow from the east, and it was supported by 2-3 comments, then the wind will blow from the east eventually.

5. The most interesting thing about blog is, there is no boundary of it. It is finite but have no boundary. Like Stephen Hawking theory. Haha. You can write and say whatever you want but BEWARE, people kind of start to scare about this and start capturing people because of what they say in their blog. And that is another proof of the power of blog. I stand firm saying that blog should have no boundary because as you can see, the more people writing blogs, the more educated the public are. Even a mak cik in pasar can say that blog content is not true meaning that public is well educated about blog. How about you?

6. In the end, the post should be about me writing for 5 years. talking rubbish and most of my posts were wasting time to read, but i still writing, and will keep writing until one particular time, in the future, where my heart say "that's it, i had enough".... that would be the end of this blog.... or... they end it before me.

Isreal the real living demon

2010-06-01T12:58:00.003+08:00

1. I am not referring to all jews cause obviously if you practice true religion, you will not do such thing as israel do. I am very sure that Isreal is doing something wrong since years ago when America and europe won't recongnize every evil deed that this country has performed.

2. Now with the new update that Isreal attack a humanitarian vessels sending supply to gaza, it should open human eyes all over the world towards this matter. What dictionary did they use if they did not define this as terrorism itself perform by israel. Terrorism is not a big word nowadays and Israel should not be exempted from the use of it.

3. Israel as obvious with other media propaganda from the west obviously, with their usual first step toward defending their own kind terrorism, said that the activist in the vessels attack them first... What a propaganda. It is like a child who do not want to first admit his own fault but try to blame other first. A very great defense mechanism.

4. People all over the world, no matter what your religion are, muslim, christian, jew, buddhist, hindus, atheist, all of them should criticize what Israel had done. Not just preventing the humanitarian supply from reaching Gaza, they even killed unarmed people. A people who obviously, if they are aggresive, want to express their concern to the dying people in Gaza.

5. Why are they so blind?

6. Why are we so blind to see? No, they were. I am not.

Hate among them.

2010-05-27T14:14:00.002+08:00

1. They said they are full of love but they humiliate other religion by drawing prophet Muhammad. There is reason why prophet Muhammad told spesifically to all muslim during his life to not draw his face. He said that in the future, when there is a single photo of him, he afraid that muslim will bow to his picture and praised his picture. So that is the reason behind it. The most humble human being ever. He even said that instead of Koran, he ask people not to write his own word of teaching or hadith because people would later have a mixed understanding between the two.

2. But now, people are provoking all Muslim community by humiliating the single biggest religious figure in Islam. I don't know why they hate Islam so much. And when we defend islam, they would mention all the bad thing about islam without knowing that Muslim community live peacefully without violence in most of the part of the world. The only violence radical way of muslim occur in the country where they bomb. Mention it, Afghanistan... they bomb it. Iran, they want to bomb it. Iraq, they bomb it. Palestine, they let them die and suffer. Hatred build up by hunger, poverty and suffering. You cannot avoid violence if you let people suffer.

3. To what extend is freedom of speech hold a peaceful value? Until there is somebody die? Blood spilled? To what extend?

4. I want people to think outside of their shell. If they want to eradicate islam, what good will they have? Can they do it without millions of people dying? And what is worth of millions people dying to achieve good? Did they said that sacrifice (jihad) is unworthy and a wrong deed? Did hitler done to eradicate jews in the world worth trying? Did jew disappear?

5. If there is a tiger in a cage living peacefully own its own, and you jump and poke its eyes, the tiger then bite you, and would you blame the tiger? You can. But is not you the who jump inside in the first place?

6. I just want people to appreciate others. I appreciate other religions no matter what you believe. It is not wrong until you disturb other. Even for muslim, if you disturb other, then you are wrong. It apply to everything. No reaction can happen without a trigger.

Teacher's Day

2010-05-21T13:41:00.002+08:00

1. Recently we celebrated teacher's day. In my hometown Labuan, the official celebation would be held tomorrow. Well, happy teacher's day to all. Everyone is appreciating the hardwork of teachers all over the malaysia.

2. I'm thinking that there is some teacher who did not really received that much appreciation. Lecturer and Professor. When we talk about teacher, we would solely, usually, refer to teacher who teach student in primary and secondary school. But what about those in higher learning institution?

3. Once my friend ask me, let us wish our lecturer happy teacher's day, and i was err..stuck, and said " what should we say? Happy teacher's day or happy prof day or happy lecturer day?" and she said " those are teacher too, just their title is different". Well, correct.

4. This group of people never nominated for best teacher award, or whatever that equals to it even though they are one of them. I wonder why,

5. So, i believe that I should say Happy Teacher day to all my beloved lecturer and professor, doctors and senior who teach me along my 5 years medical study. I would like to give them the best teacher award, to everyone of them who best teach me within this five year of study.

6. I guess, later, people would realize this group of people put the same effort in teaching young graduates, not only they need to teach from 8am to 5 pm but they also need to do their research, work and in my case in medical field, they also need to treat people. Well done to them.

' We need to do multiple jobs at one time, we are doctors, we are examiners, we are teachers, and we are researchers.' - one of my prof use to say this.

AC Adapter for Acer

2010-05-19T14:41:00.003+08:00

1. So i have this one problem with my Acer Aspire 5500 series laptop. It always turn off when i am in the middle of doing something. The reason? Vague. I don't know whether it came from the too hot CPU or it came from dysfunctional power adapter.

2. For my first theory, the cpu overheating theory. I start to think about it because since i changed my hard disk a few years ago because of overheating issues, i never heard that sound of cpu fan gush of air anymore like the first time i bough this laptop. Before, when i use my laptop for maybe 1 hour, i can hear the fan started to turn a little more loud indicating that it is trying hard to push hot air outside. Now i don't hear that one anymore. But, i do bought a external fan, the one you put beneath the laptop and it is working fine for me. Theoretically it served the same function as CPU fan, just pushing the hot air outside. Air conduction is a superior technique to remove excess heat.

3. Another theory, about the adapter. This theory came into my mind since when i touch or mobilize the adapter too much when the computer is on, it do turn off automatically without warning. So i guess something is wrong with the adapter. And, i have one battery that is no longer usable for a very long period of time but when i try to use it now, it seem that i could not recharge the battery anymore using my ac adapter. Maybe the battery problem, or maybe the ac adapter.

4. So the issues now is, should i change my ac adapter or not?

5. In term of changing the new adapter, there is two option, buying the original or non-original adapter or they call it compatible adapter that can be used for multiple laptop. The original one cost RM130 + shipping (rm15) so RM145-RM150 average. The compatible one only cost RM 80 plus shipping, the average is rm100. can save RM50 if we buy the compatible one. The problem is, many of my colleagues and friends who bought the recon one seem to be not satisfy with it. Even most of them claimed that the compatible adapter explode after a period of time usage. So scary as it sound. So the only option now is to buy the original one.

6. And the last issue is, i have no money. So it is pointless to even think of choosing which one to replace or buy. Hahahaha. Maybe after i get my work and salary, i would buy a new laptop instead.

Eminem Not Afraid

2010-05-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

. 1. Thanks god that there has been a news and a date for Eminem up coming new album. I have been waiting for this album since last year relapse released. They say there will be relapse 2 so i waited patiently..and what the heck, it almost a year before it is release.

2. But never mind. I did not need to tell again about my interest in Eminem's songs. The powerful lyrics and arranged music and song make everyone listen to Hip Hop again.

3. So, now there is a new single called Not afraid and it already debut at no.1 in billboard chart. So, this is a good news for the upcoming new album called Recovery (relapse 2 name already dropped by Eminem)

4. Regarding the new single, well, it is better than any other song in relapse and i loved the bridge in this song call Not Afraid. It was so different compare to the old Eminem song style yet it have that freshness of the old time Eminem.

5. I am anticipating the Recovery album by eminem. I want to buy it as soon as possible.

6. So, let us all wait for the album. June will be the released date for this album. Hoping it comes better than relapse.

Holiday talk

2010-05-13T18:19:00.002+08:00

1. Wa... I am so boring for this holiday. Nothing to do at home. Just sitting around watching Thomas and Uber Cup everyday in front of the TV, if i am not online.

2. If online, i don't know what to surf anymore? Reading google news is my routine every morning, and at night, log in to my facebook and just hang around staring at status update.

3. Other than this, i have Here's Ohara book. I don't know what the book is all about. All i know it contain a lot of short story which i found so hard to understand.

4. I love cooking, so i plan to cook during my holiday session but in the end, i end up waiting for meal cook by my mother. So lazy to go to kitchen.

5. Playing my cats is a routine. Everyday i hug, play, chase them. It always fun. Sometime they made me irritated because they sometimes hate to be touch by me.

6. Oh my god, this is all i have to talk about my holiday activity. So pity. I do not know what to do anymore.

Labuan and The Water Issue

2010-05-12T15:50:00.003+08:00

1. I am back in Labuan, and yes, the problem that started when I was 11 years old (now i am 24 years old) still there and no sign of it going to be resolved. NO WATER IN LABUAN!

2. Have you ever been studying in Labuan Matriculation college or University Malaysia Sabah cause if you do, you will experience this problem and you will know it better like us, the labuanites. If you are a tourist, then this should not be a problem as water for tourist or maybe bussiness sector, industrial area is not affected by this problem.

3. I want to tell everyone that my house has not get a single drop of water for almost a month now. Before this, we will have water (with low pressure) for maybe 2 days a week. We have 4 water tank now to make sure we keep enough water to survive.

4. Water is a basic thing for all living thing in this world. We are too living thing. In an island like this, i do not expect people to find water from underground sources, river or etc. We are surrounded by salted water, the sea. To get water for drinking is so hard in a small island. Yes there is underground water source now that has been use to by KTAK to supply the need for thousands of labuanites. Thanks god but that water will not resolved this problem.

5. I have been hearing that politicians are talking about this issues in parliament, but to what extend that this will help? I would say thank you to the politician who try to make thing better for us but i guess until the problem solved, i would not believe that they are doing their job. I am a citizen of this free country and i have the right to express what i feel.

6. I heard that they are building more water pipes to supply water from Mainland Sabah to Labuan, but i also heard that it will not be enough as you can see that industrial area in labuan need more water, i believe it is their right to demand for that. But not to forget, the people, the villagers, we, also have the right to get a clean water supply.

In the end, let see until when this problem will continue.

Shooting Incident

2010-05-10T13:13:00.002+08:00

1. I was afraid of the mentality of Malaysian nowadays. I was afraid and surprise reading the today's news when there is a pile of letters and article published blaming the late 15 years old Amirulrasyid is the one guilty in the shooting incident.

2. Firstly, i was disappointed on how they think about this matter. Blaming the dead? They are just rationalizing by trying not to look at the whole problem itself. Blaming the parent? Why did you not just blame everything on parent when our generation are becoming stupid nowadays?

3. We are not saying that the cops is the one to be blame. The one to be blame is the system. We should look at the whole system, how spesific cases are being handle, which person to be shoot, and which person deserved to die. The whole system.

4. But the most important thing is not to blame the parent or the minor himself. Cops does not have the right to kill a minor just because he drive at night and get panic. Do we not understand the mentality of a underage people? Do we born adult?

5. For me, i am very symphaty and emphaty to the family of late amirulrasyid. Yes that boy should not drive at the middle of the night, but do that boy deserved to die. And it was not just a mere accident.

6. So for now, let us not blame the cops, let us not (importantly) blame the side who are now in grief. Are we not human?

Iron Man Second

2010-05-08T00:53:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I am watching Iron Man 2 for the second time. The first time i did not wait until the part where they give a hint about Thor. Well, next movie should be Thor included? But i prefer Iron Man with Incredible Hulk. I believe the last time i watched Incredible Hulk 2, there was Tony Stark at the end of the film. Maybe it will be better if the two superheroes combined.

I think this is it for my movie era in Kota Kinabalu. I am going back to Labuan, and maybe after 2-3 months, i will be back here in Kota Kinabalu, hopefully, to work. Maybe that time i will continue on watching every movie on the list. But it will not be the same again. Not without my girlfriend. Hmm.............................................

By the way, I am 24 year old right now and I hate so much if other people are so nosy and busy body about my life as i guess, would they feel very comfortable if someone talk about their life and interfere with their life as they were 8 years old? Like " oh, 8 years old boy got a girlfriend, we should tell someone else". What the heck is this personality of mere human being this is?

I am ignorance and ignorance is bliss.

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Weird dream of mine

2010-05-07T16:43:00.002+08:00

I was walking in 1borneo. I don't know what is the connection of 1borneo to me. Maybe because 1borneo is the most visited place of mine.

When i enter the front door, it does not really resembles 1borneo but i always know it is 1borneo. And there were music playing... a soft violin. It was very harmony.

I walk, then i start to realize that everyone in that big building is my classmate. One one side, there were Kim wearing his tuxedo, ying hui wearing dress, ai wei, zhu mei, and everyone from the non-resident part.

at the other corner, there were my hostel mate. Zuhaidi wearing his pop yeah yeah t-shirt, fan jiet with sylves walking together, my roomate smiling and standing in one corner. I did not mention everyone here but i am sure that i see everyone.n

Everyone is either walking around and smiling at me, waving at me, and some of them walking with their own accompany. I can only remember that i saw alip and izzati and marne with pokjak walk pass through me and smile at me. Everyone else is there. I am sure of it.

As i walk towards the end of the 3rd floor of 1borneo, just beside the escalator, suddenly i realize someone going up on it. It was Pika. She smiles. I smiles and suddenly i feel so happy. I went near her and almost hug her. Everyone else, the whole classmates start to laugh together and smile to each other. So happy. I also feel so happy looking at this moment where everyone is together and look so beautiful and happy.

Then i suddenly woke up from my dream. I was alone in my hostel room. It was 5 PM, and it was raining heavily. I felt so sad to note that everyone else is not there. I got up and open my dorm door and i realize there is none of everyone else is there. It was dark, everyone already went back to their own hometown, their own place, their own future. What remains here is the silence of this hostel which used to be so loud and happening before. Now, there is only silence.

Oh i will miss my medical school time. I will miss UMS. Oh....

When In Rome

2010-05-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

Okay. I will write a short note on my opinion about this movie. Overall, it is a watchable movie. If you don't have any more movie to watch, like me, so you could get a ticket and watch this one. And make sure you brought your girlfriend or boyfriend with you because if you did not, you will look so pathetic and desperate.

This movie is enjoyable, however, toward the middle part of the story, it became a little confusing and childish. From a valentine movie, it turn to become a disney movie for 4 years old girls.

However, still it has its own attraction such as comedy, more comedy, comedy again and some fantasy.

I don't really like the movie but i enjoy it. The plot was a little poor, the original idea seem not really original, the character is unclear, and sometimes it is hard to get the jokes.

I gave 3 out of 5 stars for this movie. Most of the stars are given due to fun comedy and jokes, cute heroin ( i mean cute like a child, she is not supposed to take the character of an independent women because she look so young and child face).

Other than that, there is nothing much about this movie. Just a movie about a lonely girl, found some magic and change her life forever, and end with an happy ending. What more do you want?

Movies Review (April 2010)

2010-05-01T09:41:00.008+08:00

I love mixed Movie review. haha. I've been watching many movies ever since i pass the professional exam. I am very glad and so exciting. For the first time i watched movies without thinking of book and patient. Huhu.

So, this is all the movie i have for the last one week.

1. Iron Man 2

I am going to start with this one. I must start with this one. This is a very nice and fine movie to watch and it is worth it. Ever since avatar released, we don't see much action pack movie that make our adrenal gland secrete a lot of adrenaline for almost 2 hours. The plot was strong and the action was smooth. Too nice to describe. Plus, I love the character, a superhero which is not hiding his identity and he was also a bad ass cool guy.

Same as the first movie, there is nothing additional regarding the iron suit, no super duper extra weapon but still, i love it. Simple, tight, and so cool.

I really recommend this movie to everyone who love non stop action, bomb, technology and pretty girl.

The only down side of this movie is regarding some plot of the story is hard to grasp. Maybe we should read the comic. I still don't really understand for whom Natalie work for? What is S.H.I.E.L.D? In the end, we know that this a secret organization or whatever, still the movie did not introduce this quite nicely. Too quick i guess.

Another thing is, the ending was so quick. Only one boom defeat the villain. No. We want more than that.

Anyway, what a great movie this is. I gave 4.5 over 5 for this movie. 2 moon for the pretty and sexy girl (Scarlet).

Rate: 4.5 out of 5 star + 2 moon.
2. Kick-Ass

This is a movie that maybe a lot of people don't want to watch because of the ugly poster and lousy title.

However, you would be surprise as this movie is comparable to iron man and it is totally better than Ip Man. Even though this movie start like a movie for kids, but as the story expand, it became more sophisticated and in the end, you feel like you want to jump from your seat and fight with them.

Who make this movie anyway? I am too lazy to google for it. The movie is so nice and full of action and also laughter. I almost rate this movie 5 over 5 immediately after i watch it but due to consideration and further post mortem ( sitting in my bed thinking about the movie again), i gave this 4.5.

The downside of this movie is the costume and the name of the super hero is sure ugly.

Anyway, this movie is a must watch movie. If your friends said to you that this movie could be bad or whatever, tell them to watch it first.

p/s: Not recommended for small children and girl who hate violence. The violence in this movie is comparable to Kill Bill.

Rate: 4.5 our of 5 star + 3 moon ( one for Hit girl, one for Nicholas cage for outstanding performance, and the last one for Kick-Ass himself). Iron man lost i guess here.

3. Ip Man 2

This is what happen if you want to make a sequel so much without thinking of a good plot for it. This is exactly what happen.

Do you still remember Ip Man (the first movie) last year. I have shortness of breath watching the first movie as it was the best ever martial movie i ever watch. Until then, no other martial art movie able to conquer my heart.

When i heard Ip Man 2, my Shortness of breath start again. However, i end up having a lot of disappointment watching the sequel. It was so lame.

First thing is, the storyline was boring. In the the early part, it describe about how Ip Man trying to build a martial art school and he had to fight all the master in Hong kong before he was able to open one. That was a good start. However, in the middle of the story, the plot change. Now the story is about how Chinese is being humiliated by westerner and by the end of the movie, the chinese show how they can defeat the westerner then Ip Man began to gave a speech. What the heck?

It was like, i am watching 'Fearless' (Jet Li Movie released a few years ago) again... am i? One Fearless is enough. Too much exaggeration.

So, to my disappointment, i have to gave 2.5 out of 5 star for this movie. I gave 2.5 only for the fighting scene even though some of it are too illogical and obviously there is a string attach behind the actor so that they can fly. Lame.

Rate: 2.5 our of 5 star

4. The Losers

One of my friend recommend me to watch this movie.

It was boring. Nothing else can describe it. Okay, fine, there is some shooting and punching and blowing stuff. Still, boring.

If you like to watch macho guy, sexy guy, and if you are gay enough to watch them walking and shooting in slow motion, this is one movie for you.

Hundred army shooting to the hero, the hero did not die or even had a scratch, but one bullet from the hero, kill all hundred guy. Do you enjoy thing like that? If you do, then go and watch this movie. For me, i don't. So i really don't like the movie. The plot is somehow clear enough but the progress is so unnecessary. A lot of scene is also unnecessary. What is the use of sex scene in a action shooting bomb bomb movie? A lot of empty script. A lot of lame talking. A lot of crappy jokes. This is such a waste of time to watch.

Rate: 1 out of 5 star.
5. Shutter Island

I remember one of my teacher years ago said that he loved Leonardo Di Caprio because all of his movie is two thumb up. Maybe he is right.

Shutter island is a unique movie for those who love a twisted unsuspected kind of movie. I really don't know how the end start and i really don't expect it would end like that. You would be surprise by this movie. Can't describe furthermore because it would not be a surprise if i do.

The acting in this movie is superb. Everyone is a good actor. This movie should be nominated for an award i guess.

For the ending of this movie, you need to use some of your brain cortex i thing to think a little. Not an easy movie to watch. If you are dull enough to use your brain, better not watch this movie, but if you do use a little effort, this movie will be one of the most enjoyable movie ever.

P/s: Is it a ghost movie? Or is it about murder? You would not know if no one tell you before this.

Rate: 4 out of 5 star + 3 moon ( One moon for Leonardo, second one for Ben Kingley, and the third one for the super twist of the plot)

6. Hooperz

Ha.....

This is another local movie i watch after ice kacang puppy love.

My impression...bad..bad..

The plot was all over the place, there is no consistent plot. The main role, disappear in the middle of the story, seem to be gulped by the poorly arranged plot. This movie is about netball but i don't see a good netball game in this movie.

The role of adibah noor as the second coach expected to be more motivational and inspiring but none has been highlighted here.

No good script and many dialog are unclear and cannot be heard. Like they are speaking in some foreign language i could not understand.

The acting performance was so minimal. Like no effort has been given to make this movie more interesting, or the actress or actor just don't know how to act.

I am sorry, maybe i am too much criticizing this movie. But seriously, i am a supporter for Malaysian Movie and if they keep disappointing me like this, and every time i had to pay for their garbage movie, then where is my right as a customer that pay them my money which is so hard for me to get?

I ask my companion after the movie, " Did they really sit and think about the story of the movie? Or they just have a ring-a-bell and then lets make a movie about netball and start grabing camera and actress and shoot?"

I don't know. But i hate the movie and i hope, if they want to make a sequence or whatever, they can improve and maybe i would write something good about it.

Rate: 4 moon. No star should be given.

Ice Kacang Puppy Love

2010-04-24T23:16:00.004+08:00

It has been quite a while since i watch a movie. So today i went i watch a movie, a malaysian movie entitled 'Ice Kacang Puppy Love'. I don't know much about the making of this movie, my friend recommend it to me so why don't give it a try.

All i know is that this movie is a Malaysian Chinese movie. Not much Malaysian Chinese movie had been made in Malaysia. Even so, not much of them get a good review. Don't say Malaysian are racist but really, a good movie does not matter whether it is chinese, malay or indian movie, if it is really good, it will always be good.

This movie proved my point.

What a great movie this is. It is a story about one group of kids, friends, or teenager, having their normal life and puppy love story back in the 1980. The story is that simple.

The strength of this movie is on the good acting skill showed by all the actor and actress. Even though many of them were not that well recognize in movie industry, but i am sure their skill already beat half of the so call established actor and actress.

Another strength is the picture, the background of 1980 and early 1990 was fantastic. The way the movie pictured the life of Malaysian is almost perfect. Everything is quite realistic. I love how they really understand and dig for the fact and research before putting something into a movie. Most of Malaysian movie are lame because they were lazy to do homework and research about something they want to put inside their movie. This movie does not.

Ever since Papadom, i never watch another great Malaysian movie until this ice kacang and puppy love. This movie deserved 4.5 star out of 5 from me.

It lack 0.5 star because sometime, i realize that it was out of focus. I don't know what which story to follow in the middle of the story. Sometime there is uneccessary scene that if left, will not effect the story line.

However, much salute and respect to this movie. I enjoy it. And whoever have not watch it, please watch it.

Rate: 4.5 out of 5 star + no moon.

Professional Exam Result

2010-04-23T18:11:00.003+08:00

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I could not scream so loud in reality but i want to shout now Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally pass the exam. haha..

Still could not accept that i am a doctor now. Still cannot..haha.

Professional Exam End

2010-04-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

Today is the end of my medical professional exam. After 5 years, this is it.

This exam was difficult. I hate it. Not like before. Not like posting exam. damn. I hate it.

Tomrrow result will come out. I could not face reality anymore today. I just want to sleep.

Professional Exam

2010-04-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

Professional Exam II a.k.a PE starts today. 450 true and false question and 24 MEQ making everyone have an headache, blurring of vision, epigastric pain, blood pressure increase, irritated and everyone is at risk to develop convulsion.

Question so difficult, not to say difficult, but weird. I don't know how to describe it. The diagnosis is straight forward but the question is somehow,..... making me want to say "What is the meaning of this?"....

Pray to God that i will pass this exam. This is final. I don't want to stuck here in medical study.

Digi Broadband

2010-04-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

Before i disconnected from my digi broadband internet connection, i would like to make sure that i post this.

Digi is a liar. When i bought this broadband, they promise the 700kbs speed. I was cheated.

The problem with digi broadband is it can't connect that easily. To mention here, i have been clicking for 1 hour before i get connected and manage to post this entry. can you believe it? Then why do i supposed to pay RM58 per month for this crap?

My friend who bought the Rm88 package already terminate his digi broadband due to the same reason. No point in possessing a wireless broadband modem with clear Digi logo on it but you can't connect to the internet...

If you all want to buy broadband, i gave a damn to celcom and maxis but up to date, i heard that both of them are upgrading their broadband service while digi is downgrading with slow connection and hard to connect typical problem.

I've been complaining to digi about this problem but they seem to employ a 5th grade primary school graduate to work with them who always told me that i need to reinstall the software to remove the problem like i am a guy who just learn about computer and internet yesterday. I have been involving and updating myself with technology since more than 10 years ago.

Digi is not the best broadband and it never will if they did not do something about this problem.

Buying digi? Forget it. Go try celcom and maxis.

Facebook

2010-04-12T02:01:00.003+08:00

I have this one principle that i'm about to breach regarding facebook.

People has been condemning and criticizing regarding the abuse of facebook in term of accepting so many friends even though you did not know them.

Yes, i agree, why do you have to add them if you don't recognize them and never will.

However, lately, i realize that facebook is more than connecting to your friends. It is a social network, a wide social network that can be use for other means.

For example, if you are trying to spread something so that you want it to become 'pandemic', try it with your 200 friends that you know since childhood, the spreading will always circle there in a small virtual community of people you know.

What if you have 1000 friends, you know or do not know, once you need to spread something, it is there by with more probability of getting further than you expected.

haha... it is just a theory. It seem that facebook already lost its value in keeping you in touch with your old long lost friend, it is now more to become a way of getting a network from some place you never went and people you never knew. huhu... So why not?

Say goodbye, say goodbye to UMS

2010-04-10T11:11:00.002+08:00

There is only a few weeks for me here in UMS. It has been a long journey for me here. It is still fresh in my mind, the first day i registered in UMS.

The day i first wear my labcoat, the day i first my car in UMS.... the first day in hospital.

Friends i met, friends i lost.

Money i spend, money i spend.

So much i have see here in UMS. Every changes that i can experience. 5 years is quite a long time.

But i guess i have no choice.. i will always be here in KK as there is no other available hospital for me to work except KK, or tawau which i don't want to go in the first place, and hmm...

Brunei family name....

2010-04-07T18:16:00.002+08:00

There is a unique name for Bruneian who originate from a royal family. They have Awangku, dayangku and Pangeran in front of their name. It was very spesific. The title can only be inherited when a dayangku married an awangku but awangku can always give the title to his son and daughter even though he married a normal women without that title.

Yes, it sound sexist. It supposed that a son of dayangku also can inherit the title as proven in science that genetic is always equal from mother and father. huhu..

However, there is so many people now are abusing the name of dayangku and awangku by giving the title to anyone they like. It does not matter and the Jabatan Pendaftaran negara did not bother to check the authenticity of the title.

Hmm, in the end, there is so many awangku and dayangku even though most of them did not know the genealogy of his/her family.

I am not sure about the title dayang and awang whether it is similar or not with dayangku or awangku. But from what i can observe, the royal bloodline usually use awangku and dayangku. the 'ku' is kind of spesific.

Hmm, my mom is a dayangku, but my father is not. So i don't get the title. Hehe. It could be fun if i had that tittle.

What is the significant of the title? The significant is about the level of custom and tradition that is practice when you bound to the title. The way marriage is arrange, and every protocol and procedure must be take care with cautious as the title seem to reflect the royal bloodline.

A lot of people who did not study history well, said that the title is given to dayang-dayang istana as it reflect the name itself 'dayang' but it is funny to listen to this kind of people who lack the knowledge of history.

Ask a form 3 student who learn history of Malaysia, who are the people that was sent to Sabah and Sarawak and other area which is under the ruling of Brunei Royal family? Was it dayang-dayang istana? haha. No. They send their family, pembesar-pembesar, those pangeran which later after the formation of Malaysia and a lot more event, remain to be living in Malaysia and the title remain only as title. They don't do job for Royals of Brunei anymore.

The real Pangeran family always proud of their title and genealogy of their family. Even though i am not one of them, but i, supposed to inherited half of the gene, are very much interested in this history and nomenclature. Huhu..no article i can found that describe this matter seriously in an easy way to understand. So....

Nevermind. I am thinking of making my own family name. Nice to have one so that all family member in the future can find each other easily. Hmm...what should it be?

Iran Nuclear Programme: The Truth

2010-04-05T17:53:00.002+08:00

World Politic entry this time.

Okay, no one know the real reason and situation today, only suspicion.

Iran said that they are developing nuclear energy for civilian and not for war.

Israel said Iran is lying and plan to bomb Iran if they did not stop the program.

Haha. Forget those so called analyst. They are too complicated until they missed this one important thing. Which country is promoting war? The one who claimed to be peace or the one who plan to bomb?

I feel very funny on how adult and so call big big people in this world think.

If Iran really develop a nuclear bomb, then what will happen? Take over the world?

But what if Israel win in this situation? Well, to remind those analyst, Israel already kill 1400+ people in Gaza, no way that Israel is not a terrorist.

People might call me anti-israel or whatever, but if Iran attack other people i would also want to be call Anti-Iran. I am anti-war ultimately.

Permata Hijrah

2010-04-04T15:10:00.003+08:00

1. A lot of Muslim, when we mention the term ulama, they will 100% believe whatever we said. For example, I say " I was having a headache, and one ulama said that by eating honey, it will cured". I am sure every muslim will believe it. Most of them at least. But, who are this ulama? Is he really know the fact or only randomly said whatever he want?

2. Actually, this issues came into my mind when i heard about one product call Permata Hijrah advertised in television saying that they will cure glaucoma, diabetic retinopathy, cataract, and every other eye disease. Plus, they mention that their product were real because it was based on years of study from ulama-ulama from Kelantan and Pattani.

3. I say what the heck is this. The product itself look weird and suspicious. I bet it is safe because it won't do any thing to you whether benefit or harm. But i am very irritated when they published it with the sound of 'islamiah', hoping that stupid muslim people would run to the shop and buy it.

I am also irritated when i wrote this that someone is saying that i am evil because i am not helping the local industry to grow. I don't give a damn about that. What is wrong is wrong, a lie still a like even you say God say it.

4. Read. Read. Read. Muslim should read. Study. And not let people fool us like we are real stupid human ever in this world. Read.

Stop with the nonsense.

Teaching Hospital For Universiti Malaysia Sabah

2010-04-03T10:19:00.003+08:00

1. Hmm, this issues has been circulating recently. Well, i am not sure about the end of this battle. But i am sure that all people in Sabah want more doctors and hospital.

2. Yes, what my prof said in the last meeting with us make sense, there is no such thing as lack of Hospital in Sabah as there is multiple quite enough scale hospital around sabah, however no one running it since there has been lack of doctors in sabah for a very long long time. The issues does not seem to be solve by any ruling government in Malaysia.

3. The problem is the system itself. The way the plan are planned. Since i am in my first year of study in UMS medical school, the issues regarding not enough space to accommodate all patient in Sabah is always the main concern of the public and medical care giver. Now i am in my fifth year of study, finishing soon, there is no changes that i can see, wait, there is, the main hospital were closed because it was not safe. It was like, downgrading.

Anyway... please support it at Facebook group for this issues

4. Now i believe that some group of people are fighting to get a teaching hospital in Sabah. It was like a dream. A big dream. As we can see how federal government deal with such issue in Sabah for for ages, why should it suddenly change by only a three hundred citizen in Sabah? Does it make any changes if they did not grant the wish of Sabahan to get their own well equipped teaching hospital which can serve both to serve the community and to train medical doctors to serve for them in near future?

5. Nothing will change. Anger will be distributed but in the end after a few months, maybe, the fire will be cooled down and after a year, the government will always win the Sabah's people heart.

6. I am not anti government and i am myself not a pro-opposition. I am only a mere citizen of Malaysia. Who are living in harmony by the effort of previous leader which fight for my harmony for hundreds of years. Now, i am the product that they were fighting for and now, even a voice like me would not be hear by anyone in this country.

7. For once, i think people should think of us here in Sabah. Maybe it is far enough to see from across of southeast china sea, our suffering for years.

8. Hmm, in the end, nothing will happen. We will still be like this. There is no optimism.

I and Pad

2010-04-02T17:33:00.004+08:00

When taking a medical history of a women, menstrual history is important.

A: Madam, how many pad do you use in one day?
Madam: Don't have one, doctor..
A: Urr...so what do you use instead?
Madam: Use only phone.
A: Err. i guess you misunderstand me, madam. I mean, how many pad do you use when you you had your period every month?
Madam: Don't have one, does not matter in period or not.
A: And why is that?
Madam: Because don't have money to buy that.
A: But it is stated here that your husband is working in government sector and no financial issue stated in your record.
Madam: Yes, but you know that thing is so expensive. Can't afford it.
A: Oh well, so what do you use then if you don't use that?
Madam: Used only phone lor. My son bought me one last year.
A: Yea? That is very nice of him. But what about pad?
Madam: Already told you, don't have money to buy that one, my husband also won't buy me want. also don't want it because would not know how to use it.
A: Err... you never use it ever?
Madam: No.
A: Do you know how much is a pad?
Madam: almost rm3000 orrr
A: Madam, can you repeat my sentence... I want to go to the toilet.
Madam: Want to go to the toilet.
A: oo

Evolusi KL Drift 2

2010-04-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

When i woke up this morning, the first thing i saw in the TV was Datuk Yusof Haslam promoting his son's new movie, Evolusi KL Drift 2 (EKLD 2).

I am planning not to watch this movie since the first one is so damn boring. But i can tell you, their promoting skill is superb. From not wanting to watch it, i end my day today wathing it instead.

So what i feel about the movie? It was a joke. The movie is a joke. Why do they make such movie? I can tell you that it is a waste of time to see.

First, the plot, is boring, lame, illogical. Nothing make sense.

Second, the script, the dialogue, all are childish, outdated, doesn't make sense.

Third, the main actor and actress, are they new actor or actress like this is their first movie ever? So rigid. Even when they make an emotional touching scene, everyone in the cinema hall laugh out loud. Because it was stupid.

Fourth, yes there is so many gun fighting scene but the bullet is made from air i guess. No side effect that to make it look real.

So many down side of this movie.

The only good thing about it is, compare to the first one, ending is 1% better. And i want to salute the actors ( i forgot their real name), the one who became the chinese gangster in the movie. Those two guys have a bright future. Plus farid kamil, the other actor and actress is lame.

In my opinion, if they cut the main actor and actress, remove the plot where they talk about friendship and everything, just remove everything maybe, and leave only the gangster and the cops part, this movie would be better. If they do that, i can give 3 out of 5 star at least.

But now, i can only manage to give 1 out of 5 star for this movie. That 1 star is for aron aziz and the other guy who play the gangster role very well.

Rating: 1/5 star. No moon.

Clash of The Titans

2010-04-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

When i bought the ticket of this movie, i was pretty sure that i will watch an action packed movie about someone fighting monster or war or battle everywhere. It is a clash is not it?

But when i sat inside the cinema hall, i was like ... uhh.. did i bought the wrong ticket? I am sure it was Clash of Titan and not Percy Jackson. But there it is. The serious version of percy jackson.

The main problem is, i have watched percy jackson just a month ago so when i watch this movie, i already know about everything. I know about medusa, perceus (percy), the battle between zues and hades, the way to get to underworld. Everything is similar. Not to blame anyone but as both picture based on the old greek or whatever theology, so fair enough.

The problem is, the story is to boring. 1 hour 40 minutes of them walking to find whatever they want to find and then the end with the hero win the battle as usual.

The advertisement showing the big large kraken, yes, it was amazing, the kraken was huge, fierce, damn nice computer graphic but...last only for seconds or maybe 1 minutes towards the end of the movie? What? No fighting witht he big monster? This is wrong. If you want to put a computer graphic kind of movie, you should make it 1 hour or more of the main thing. Not just a few seconds or minutes.

Overall... i don't really like this movie. The enviroment is so dry and not nice to see. Your eyes will become yellow, black and white after watching this uncolourful movie. Like eating a steak without gravy and salad. haha.

I gave 3 out of 5 star for this movie. supposed to give it 2.5 but 0.5 star only for the kraken. It was huge.

Rating : 3/5 star. No moon.

Diplomacy

2010-03-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

I am thinking... it is hard to become a diplomat. It is easier to become a dictator.

If a country was attacking another country and you are a country who supposed to be friend for this two country, obviously you would condemn everything about the attacker. This will be gone for a very long time. The solution is clear. But when somehow, after a period of time, the attacking country stop and try to negotiate a friendship back with your country, will you accept it. What if the attacked country is one of the top priority of your country?

If you choose to take the easy solution and accept the agreement from the attacking country, it would hurt the attacked country. Then you try to negotiate the attacked country to accept the solution but it would not be so easy as you thought. In the end the line is clear, you have to obey a country that is the top priority. But this mean you are going declare a full blown war with the other one.

If i am the diplomat in this situation, i would rather be silent and engaged in a different way to find the solution. Even a round table would not solve the problem. I have to maintain the relation with the country that is so important to mine first at the same time, avoiding any provoking factor. But no clear solution will be visualized. But it could be better compare to feeding a hatred either way.

It is so hard to become diplomatic. It is much easier to become dictator.

Muallaf

2010-03-31T10:04:00.002+08:00

So late. I never had any interest in watching late Yasmin movie. I do sometimes like her type of movie but, well, from Sepet and Gubra, i was disappointed. So when this movie came out, i was like, no way.

So i guess just today i get a copy of this movie from a friend and i watched it. This is what i think...

It was not bad. The movie is full of content and messages which can make others think on the similarities between us and not to look at the difference. From the beginning until the end, the movie is so full with content.

The picture is also quite nice, there was not a single frame from the picture showing nothing but content. Perspective. Revision. Idea. Life. Reason. Everything was show in the dialogue, the picture, the music and even the way they put or arrange the furniture, cloth and surrounding environment.

The downside of this movie is as usual, the story build up so slowly. There is no intro, climax, solution or end, there is only content. Flat storyline. No real solution. And you can't even appreciate which one is actually the conflict in the movie. Which story is highlighted? Every content is buried somehow making you confuse to what actually the movie is trying to say.

Hoho.

So i would gave 3 out of 5 star for this movie.

Rating: 3/5 star. 0 moon.

p/s: I like the idea when she said Everyone afraid of what they could not understand.
And also when she said that every translator have different opinion so we should not blindly follow. I like this because ever since i read tafsir since a year ago, i lost much of my interest because the translator seem to be narrowing all the content of Koran despite of making it wide to the current situation we are dealing with today. I believe that not until we ( I) learn arabic that i could really understand the meaning of it. For example, they translate Islam as islam in the koran and why not Selamat or sejahtera or safe? I always think of this... Maybe Prophet Jesus, Abraham, all came to us praying to God and use the word Islam but in old language and not arab. maybe. haha.

How to train your dragon

2010-03-30T14:10:00.002+08:00

Dragon? Lame? Outdated? We have seen so many dragon movie before. Now that they make another dragon movie, in 3D, is not it boring?

No. This movie is different. It is not about dragon only but different type of dragon. it is like watching a pokemon or digimon or whatever yang sewaktu dengannya. In this movie, we can see a few types of dragon with its ability and weakness. it was fun.

Plus, the dragon is cute especially the Night Fury. Look like a cat.

Anyway, this movie is about a group of people who are called viking. they kill dragon and they were good at killing it. however, they never understand the dragon they fight not until a boy named Hiccup discover that dragon was not a cruel reptiles but a friendly one and it can be train. So the story goes. A whole villagers who killed dragon for generations versus a boy who can ride one.

I can tell you that from the beginning until the end, you will be full of excitement, laughter and you are hoping for more dragon along the movie.

The introduction part was genius, the story end with a good happy ending one, as usual for a 3d movie for kids, and the last huge dragon was.... huge. It really look like godzilla. I love godzilla so this is bias a little bit. Hehe.

Anyway, i recommend this movie. it is better than alice in wonderland ( to compare it with the previous movie in 3D i have watched).

I gave this movie 4 out of 5 star. It lack one star from me because i want more dragon. I want to see more night fury. Hehe. Plus one moon for the movie for the big godzilla in the end.

rating: 4/5 star + 1 moon.

Not bad.

2010-03-27T16:41:00.001+08:00

I was thinking, who else work from 6 AM in the morning and finish around 9-10 PM at night on average, everyday, the whole year

I was thinking, who else work a 36 hours shift?

I was thinking, who else work for the benefit of others and sacrificed their own life with a cheap salary not even enough to buy a house?

I was thinking, who else work even in public holiday and weekend?

I was thinking, who else work even he/she was sick and not given any medical leave?

Hmm...a slave maybe?

Haha... this is just a random thinking of my future. Looking at the bright side, maybe it is not bad at all.

Merantau Warrior

2010-03-26T09:45:00.003+08:00

Ni nak cerita sikit tentang movie ni. Mula2 kata nak tayang kat Sabah ni, bila sampai tarikh yang ditetapkan, tengok2 tiada pula ditayang. Kena cari DVD baru bleh tengok. Pelik betul la dorang ni. Apa masalah cerita ni pula sehingga tak ditayangkan di Sabah? Ada unsur tak baik ka? tak ada juga. Entahlah. Dorang anti sabah kot. haha.

Have you ever seen Ong Bak? Even though Ong Bak is not a genre of movie but i guess people already make it one. If you watch a movie like Fury, Raging Of Phoenix, and this one Merantau Warrior, it is an Ong Bak genre movie.

What i like about this movie is obviously the fighting choreography. I always think why people stop making Silat movie. Everything nowadays is about Kung Fu or karate, or universal marshal art where one punch and the other avoid it and return the punch. Do you remember years ago, there is a lot o Silat movie, during P.Ramlee time, during A.R Badul, until late 1990's, suddenly Silat was gone. Just like that.

Not until Ong Bak released. Craving for Silat movie, most of silat fan would not throw away the chance to watch Tony Jaa reviving Silat again in this world. But then, is that it? We gave away Silat to Thailand which is proud of their Muay Thai ( it is a form or a branch of Silat Art). Why don't we make it ourselves. A movie like that.

Then this Merantau Warrior came. True, it is from our neighbor country Indonesia, but it is good enough to make us open our eyes and start to realize that Silat is not a dance art but a real martial art which is deadly and dangerous. If asked to most of people from southeast asia, kung fu or silat, which one is more deadly? I guess a lot will say Silat. However, young generation will answer Kung Fu, because they only saw Jet Li and Jackie Chan in the movie.

What is good about Merantau Warrior is, it does not really plagiarize Ong Bak, it is the same genre of movie, but it has its own story line, and the fighting, is 100% Silat and not Muay Thai. You can see the similarities but also you will see a lot of difference between Silat and Muay thai. This movie can be classified as original even though a lot say it plagiarize ong bak.

The story line...simple. The martial art choreography, 70% brilliant. Does it open our eyes about introducing this movie again in the future? Certainly.

I hope that many movie like this will come out in the near future. I hope one of them came from Malaysia because we have our own Silat style also.

For those who want to watch a brand new silat martial art movie, i recommend this movie. We can learn a lot of move from it.

I gave this movie 3 out of 5 star. plus one moon because of the martial art choreographer.

Give it a try.

The Lovely Bones

2010-03-25T00:45:00.002+08:00

Alice in wonderland, nice but for a 4 year old kid. If we talk about some serious fantasy movie, for adult, the lovely bone it is.

It was based on a book by the same title i guess. I never read the book but i know about it. So without knowing the story from that book, i go and watch this movie and believe that this is one of my favaorite movie ever since 2010 started.

It was a unique movie about a girl who are murdered and then she tell the story from her afterlife. The movie is a combination of fantasy and spiritual element. Plus a lot of intense and suspense, with a little touch of good acting and also storyline. I can never predict the end of the story from the beginning. The story is unpredictable and i like it.

I recommend this movie for those who loved fantasy, family movie, and thriller.

I gave 4 out of 5 stars for this movie.

So enough about the movie, i want to tell a story about a person who was sitting at my back when i watched this movie. 2 females. I believe that one of them already read this book so she know the story. The problem is, one of them keep asking the other about how the story goes along the movie. WTF. If she really want to know, can she just watch the screen in front of her. And the other person keep telling about how the story goes. Well, in my conclusion, i would suggest this two perempuan, go back or go sit somewhere in a coffeehouse or something and talk about the movie rather than paying RM5 to enter the cinema hall and keep talking about the movie from the books she read before. Everyone is thinking illogically nowadays. So many people think illogically which i hate the most.

I hate illogical thinking, so stop think illogically if someone want to be around me. haha...but i do accept jokes and good illogical humour. hehe.