On Honeymoon Posting

Well, did i tell earlier that i started my forensic posting last week. haha. I'll be having this posting for 2 weeks. I hate forensic honestly. I hate the smell of dead body, even worse, the decomposed body. But have to endure it for this two weeks. Last group look a little relax on this posting, so i hope after a hard work in Klinik Kesihatan Luyang, i will be enjoying my honeymoon for this 2 weeks in forensic.

Basically, forensic posting is all about waiting. Waiting for the dead to come. And if there is a body come to the department, we all would e very happy. To think in a common sense way, it is not apt to be happy about it. But that is all the entertainment for us. If there is no death, then we will be like a dumb waiting in our pantry.

The problem is, lot of the classes were cancel within this two weeks, and there is not much dead people arrived. Hell. I only went for 2 post mortem, and both cases were not suitable for a case report that have to submit next Monday. I will be dead if i keep like this. Now it is already friday. Should i expect that there will be a murder or suicide case tomorrow? Should i pray for it?

Since we do not have so much cases, one of the case presentation has to be postponed next week. That day we already end our forensic posting. And the other case presentation would be today. But, in the last 30 minutes of waiting for it, the session was postpone suddenly. To when? To the date that even us did not know.

So basically, i am having my honeymoon within this two weeks. Not much dead people. Chinese New Year Holiday some more. Cancel the presentation, the practical and everything. This posting is by far the worse posting i ever experienced. Posting that we can't control the time and schedule. I remember Dr.Choubey say to us, Forensic posting is really unpredictable. We have to wait for the teaching materials cause the teaching materials would not be there as you wish it will be. And to pray for a death is not a good thing to do. No death, means harmony, but mean nothing to learn for us. Worse of you were asked to submit 2 case report in two weeks time where you did not know whether there will be a case to be reported or not.

Haha, anyway, in a positive way, i really enjoy my honeymoon. haha. 2 weeks of honeymoon. What else do you ask for?

'So make the best of this test and don't ask why. It is not a questions but a lesson learn in time...' Greenday.


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Valentine's Day Special

As the time goes by, I keep reading and reading my books and search for knowledge everyday. My life always be fun everyday because I have this kind of formula on unplanned plan. Everyday, instead of the schedule given by my school, I never plan for anything else. Never plan on where to go for dinner, what to do at night, and never ask why I have to do something. I just flow like that everyday, and it is fun. Always fun to be like this.

Sometimes, I even did not count the day and time. Occasionally I look at there calendar and I found that it is already January, 4th of February, 13th of February, what? It’s already February. It always fun to be like this. To be surprised by the date. In my life, I only remember my birthday, Sunday, and holiday.

Ok, so last night, someone was reminding me about today. What day is today?

“Its valentine’s day”

Haha. The day came. A day for all the lovers and couples to express their feeling to each other, give present, flower or something like that. Most of them blindly assume that this day is the day to put down their insecurities. Many make mistake on this day. But the day should always be appreciated since it is the day for love. The day that everyone must love, no war, no fight, no hatred. It is a good day nice.

Last Friday, when I was sitting in the mosque, waiting for the Khutbah, I was reading an article from Muslim Student organization (or something like that). The article mentioned about valentine’ day, about the history, about the story behind it and why they celebrate it. I read it with open minds. I understand the content, and as far as I know, I have been taught about this since I was in primary school. Many people give different opinion about this day.

When I turn on the TV this morning, there was a forum discussing about Teenage love. They are saying that they need to stop this kind of love. They give lots of opinion and lots of suggestion on how to prevent it. By claiming that the teenage to study, and only focus on study, love is only a distraction, lots of problem would occur with it. Every negative perspective have been spit out by the speaker.

So, when it comes to this day, adult would always bring out this issue. When it comes to this day, religious people would always bring out this issue. All of them trying to put down this day, making this day feel so guilt to be celebrated.

So what is it about anyway? I have seen Valentine’s day every year. I know that people are telling the truth about the negative side of this day. This day could bring a lot of impact if you are overstepping it. And I know about the history behind this day. Could be I’m having a sin by appreciating this day. But I don’t give my total agreement for all of this. I did not.
This is because, for me, a day where people are ask to love each other is not a bad thing to do. In this world right now, what we need and only is love. Looking around the world, love is depleting and war emerged. Love is actually the thing that create and that can save us.

The issues of teenage love always being raised in this day. This is not the fault of this day. This is the fault of them by themselves. Teenager should be teach to love in the right way. It is the job for the adults, for those who are really have experienced with it to teach this young immature group about it. Why must they said that young people love is always bad. Why don’t they teach this young group on how to love in a correct way, in a good way. There is always method.

If we celebrate valentine’s day in a church ( if we are muslim) that could be a sin. But if we encourage people to stop fighting and honoring their love one in this day, it could not be a sin. If we want to talk in a religious perspective, we should talk about Halal and Haram about love. Not about the day. In my opinion, in Islam, love is always firs priority. We should Love the God, and we should love mankind. What is matter now is the history behind this day that some people do not want to accept. It is true. We can’t be obsess about this day. It is wrong looking to the history. But what if, in this day, we say that we love someone. Could be we are saying we love our friends, love our parents, love our best friend, sister, and so many more. It could be a good thing. Why don’t we just celebrate it as a day to love people around us? Not to celebrate the history. Like we are celebrating the New Year, all of us celebrate is does not matter if you are Muslim or non. It’s a day that we are waiting for, we gather with our family, go spend some time with friends and everything, no one raised the issues of new year while the calendar we are using right now are calculated using the birth of Christ as a marker. But no one care because we did not celebrate it because of that but because of new year is the time for everyone.

Bla bla bla.

Anyway, I did not see my point here is actually true about this day. Haha. This is because, in valentine’ day, it is always about couples isn’t it. Haha. So the day to love people around you is not suitable for valentine’s. Using my idea would change completely about how they celebrate this day. Argghhh. I am really confused about it though.

As a conclusion, I will always let people decide about it. I totally agree in my religion perspective that we cannot celebrate this day. And I always agree from the adult perspective that this day bring lot of problem. Even though, I always like this day. And I am sure lot of couples our there do. If I said couples, I’m referring to the true lover, a husband and wife out there or for someone who will get married or what ever. If you are in love, a pure love, you should appreciate your love one today. Don’t miss this day just because of people opinion. And for the young couples, go learn some more and grow up quick. Your time will come, cause I know, young lovers always a monkey love. Haha.
You will never know, how love is. Until you use your brain hard enough to think about it very hard. Love that come from the heart, must be analyze by the brain. Haha.


p/s: My hatred is so hard today. Even though it is valentine. A problem that I can’t solve will always me hate those people that always trying to hurt my family. Even it is valentine’s, I will always keep in my heart that anyone that hurt my family will be cursed by the god and if they did not, I will curse them. And don’t let me see you all if I have the opportunity to kill or not saving you from death. Haha.

p/s: Who would be my valentine? Nah, don’t bother to think about

Chinese New Year Tale

I am a little down for this few weeks. Thinking that something might happen today, something might happen today while actually nothing is happening to me accept everything just float around leaving me behind without anything to hold on.

Chinese new year celebration could be a fun day to start. I could use this new year to re create myself and be again in a life where i use to take control.

A night full of red colour, i take my chances, driving from UMS to Kota Kinabalu to meet my cousin and pick up friends from UMS KAL, i'm changing myself to become more enjoyable tonight. A night of chinese new year eve.

The first thing we do, is to grab a box of donut in BIG APPLE and drive ourselves to Tanjung Aru Beach. Sitting there watching the sea at night, was so wonderful and it is something that make my life cool down a bit. Make me more patience.

Since the beginning of this day, i was complaining about everything. After i opened my eyes in the morning, i complaint about the post mortem that we have to attend at noon. I complaint when the body to be dissected arrived late and i complaint about the smell of the corpse. Everything seems to be going on wrong in my life.

Did i made a wrong choice? Did i lie to myself? Or am i being too honest about everything? I don't know. World is not flat. World is not what we imagine. World is what we are living that make us feel like we don't want to live anymore.

So when i smell and feel the air at the beach, i feel so comfortable. Like the world is comforting me. As i always say to myself about being patient. Don't get mad. Just live it like this. Just be yourself. Now, the world is saying that to me.

Next, after the fun at the beach, we drive to centre point to watch movie. CJ7 i think. We being planning to see this movie since a weeks ago. We bought the ticket, and for a hour and a half of waiting, we play pool in a corner where there are not so many people around.

At first, me and my cousin were playing. And later the friends from UMS-KAL replaced us. Learning how to play, and we teached them how to play. We have fun. Laughing, hitting the ball, and laughing again.

But then, something terrible happen. One of my friend from UMS-KAL seems to be confused because her wallet disappear from her bag that she put on the table beside the pool table. And one of my other friend from UMS-KAL are guarding the table and the bag. How come the wallet disappear just like that?

We take time to think, then finally we made a conclusion. Someone steal her dompet. Aiya. Our movie are starting in a few minutes. We are going round and round searching for her wallet and asking the staff around to find us. But nothing can be done. Everyone is busy. We are allowed to look at the CCTV but we hardly can talk with the women in charge since there is a lot of people losing their bag and wallet that night. Not just us.

So nothing can be done. We drive to the nearest police station, and we have to report about the lost. While the three of my UMS-KAL friends are reporting to the police on-call, me and my cousin had a conversation. Talking about a lot of stuff to keep us entertained.

Finish the report around 1 am in the morning. We sent those three girls back to their place. Me and my cousin then went to Sadong Jaya to eat come nasi lemak. Well, nothing to do. We burn our movie ticket, everything was wrong that night. The comfort of the beach no longer fresh in my physical body. I hate ruined night. Ruined plan.

It seems that it is true that everything that i plan cannot be a success. Until when i will have this curse and i don't know. My life, since the early life, was unplanned. I never plan to do something and get it right.

Maybe the last thing i plan is to enter medical school then i got it.

I remember in Harold and Kumar Goes to White Castle movie, Harold said " I want that feeling, a feeling of a man that get what he desire."

Me, also, want that feeling. A feeling of myself getting what i want and what i plan for done right.

But i also remember the phrase.... don't try to unfold the universe, because the universe will unfold itself. Maybe keeping myself low and patient, can bring some good luck to me later. haha... I wish, i will get to that time soon.

Happy Chinese New Year!